current experiencing dpdr could someone pls help

my ocd keeps convincing me that i have bpdr instead of it just being me going through normal human motions and experiences or traits of autisum to where it genuinely feels like i am confused on my identity or my core self even though i don’t think i ever have been in life but i just feel like it all of a sudden with my ocd latching onto these different bpdr symptoms and associating them with things like my habits in being super hyperaware of my body and different sensations and this weird dissociating thing i do with my eyes where i view myself in thrid person to and feel like i can see myself being a certain way or putting on a new “personality" or persona in different sitiations or with the relationships in my life and feel like i can do it even when just by myself where i’ve just been getting more confused and scared as the days have gone by but im always myself in said scenarios

Anonymous

Date posted: 24d

Hi I deal with this ocd as well you are not alone! I often struggle with when I feel an emotion internally, but don’t express it for one reason or another I’m “acting” or hiding something of who I am

jasminenicol...

Date posted: 24d

@Anonymous thank you so much 🥹 do you maybe have any useful tips i could use especially in calming my anxiety down

Mhettmack

Date posted: 24d

I’ve had dpdr 24/7 for a year and a half now. It’s hell but therapy has helped some and also trying to ignore it.

jasminenicol...

Date posted: 24d

@Mhettmack thank you so much for your reply 🥹 i’ve def been able to manage it at times but im just struggling all over again with trying to ignore and just be comfortable in the uncomfortable but with my ocd latched onto this new fear and obsession as far as me having bpdr and then other scary harm intrusive thoughts that feel so real and then me having compulsions where like instead of avoiding and keeping away from things to prevent a fear or thought, it’s like i feel urges to do whatever said thought or fear and i just 😞 im so scared and sad and confused about so many things and then (sorry if this is tmi or anything!) but im also on my monthly and i know thats def playing a part and then lack of sleep but its been so hard to sleep

Mhettmack

Date posted: 23d

@jasminenicolexe Omg when j was at my worst and it was that time of the month, my mind was the worst. It felt like my brain was going 500mph in 20 different ways. They’re just thoughts though and people that are truly going insane, aren’t aware of it

jasminenicol...

Date posted: 23d

@Mhettmack yes!!! and yeah exactly haha crazy people aren’t questioning if they’re crazy. but do you think everything im experiencing really is just my ocd and anxiety? or just do you have any tips in being out of my head. but thank you so much i really appreciate your help 😞🥹 and

Mhettmack

Date posted: Yesterday

@jasminenicolexe Sorry for just now seeing this. My only advice is when you feel weird just keep doing whatever you’re doing and it will eventually go away. The busier I am the better I feel. It is really scary and I often feel like I’m going to lose my mind or memory but I haven’t yet after 2 years haha. Also, yes it’s just anxiety and ocd. Mine happened during my first panic attack and I’ve been like this ever since

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