Confused/long post

My girlfriend and I had been broken up for awhile now. Our timeline is kinda all over the place, but the last time we spoke was last January . So it’s almost been a year. I know emotions can be all over the place… one day you miss them , and the next you might not care as much. I recently been thinking about her and she’s been in my dreams. I also started a new job at the mall and I really like it there . There’s this guy that looks at me and I’ve been looking at him. He’s cute but im attracted to girls. He starts convos w/ me and he’s really nice and the last thing I wanna do is mess with him . He seems really genuine. He recently asked for my Instagram and we been talking a little but nothing crazy. I feel like he might like me and be interested and idk how to describe the feeling but it’s like I’m more confident around guys but when it comes to girls they make me nervous and my stomach gets butterflies. Idk for the longest time I didn’t wanna download tinder bc I felt guilty about moving on and I feel like I wasn’t ready to . I consider myself religious and I don’t wanna repeat the same mistakes I’ve made in the past. Not sure if it’s my ocd or god but it’s like something telling me not to explore my options. I’m also PMSING so I feel like my ocd is flaring up. I’ve been doing really good w/ being by myself and yes it is lonely sometimes but idk I feel like I wanna explore and have fun. Sometimes I get scared bc what if I fall for someone whether it be a women or a guy and I end up catching feelings? I think I’m scared to catch them bc I catch them fast. I don’t wanna long term. I want short term. I wanna be able to just explore and not have labels on anything. I’ve never done that but I noticed I like the attention people give me. The lust I think. But I don’t wanna disappoint god. Even texting this paragraph I’m getting teary eyed bc I don’t know what to do. Part of me wants to stop talking to that guy bc I feel like I’m leading him on. We both parked on the 3rd level at the mall and we were talking and I kept talking to him cuz I didn’t want the convo to end. Like I wanted him to ask for my Instagram and he did. This is what happens when I want to explore and see. When I’m just alone and to myself I’m fine. There’s also this stud (girl) who’s at the mall who works in the shoe department I have a crush on. Work crushes and just dating at work can lead to problems I feel like. So I’m already thinking about things that haven’t happened yet. Like what if I start talking to this guy and the I feel sum or what if her and I start talking and now I have a conflict? I mean obviously I wanna be open and honest and will be but I don’t wanna feel like I’m “for everybody.” You kno what I mean? I know I don’t want anything serious bc of OCD. OCD messed up my relationship and maybe that’s why I don’t want anything long term. Of course I have goals and wanna focus on work. Ugh I might just stop talking to everyone all together. I matched w/ someone on tinder too and on my bio I said “short term, nothing serious etc.” and she knows that. She said she’s willing to let it slide or something like that. But she hasn’t texted me back after I asked where she’s from. And listen maybe she’s busy or sleeping but I’m like is it a sign from god? I don’t wanna go backwards and repeat the same mistakes I’ve made in the past . I feel like it’s early to tell this guy everything. All he did was ask for my Instagram and said that when I’m free we can go get food and he’ll pay. But I feel bad for him paying. I might just end up paying for myself. Idk can someone help me? Maybe if I get a second or third opinion on what’s happening my kind will settle down. Not sure if this makes sense to anyone but hopefully someone can help me. Also side note, at first when the guy was bringing up food I wanted to say no because I didn’t wanna seem rude but I am kinda interested in going. I do feel sum but it’s not how I feel w/ girls if that makes sense. I don’t wanna put myself in a prison state… meaning I wanna be able to live my life and see what happens. But I wanna remain faithful and wanna remain obedient to god. He has helped me get to where I am today and I don’t want him to give up on me. And I don’t wanna not be able to hear him anymore.