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Schizophrenia OCD. Has anyone ever had this fear, if so can you tell me how bad it got for you? I’ve been doing better these last few weeks. I stoped googling symptoms, stop my mental compulsions, how ever my mind is so worked up, i notice every little sound around me, i stopped checking to make sure what i hear is real (which is extremely hard and peaks my anxiety) also started obsessing over my eyes and what i see, noticing every little moment rather is leaves falling, lights flashing, eye floaters, EVERYTHING! Shit is so difficult at times but I keep pushing! I just want to know if anyone can relate to this.

giannab

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: Yesterday

I’ve had this theme, and it was very difficult when I had it!! I had it for about a year. Not knowing if I was possibly going crazy or not was so aggravating and debilitating. Watching movies like Shutter Island and listening to audiobooks like Brain on Fire really, really helped. These exposures were super difficult at first (and I recommend ramping up before you do these), but they eventually became a piece of cake. Most of my compulsions were mental, so ERP mostly consisted of trying my best to accept that I might be going crazy or developing schizophrenia. The more you can laugh at or merely notice (and not judge) when you think you hear or see something, the more you can start to train your brain to care less. Keep going, and hang in there! You’re very strong! You will get through this.

Rrego1500

Date posted: Yesterday

@giannab Thank you, I appreciate the response. I’ll look into those movies, (been avoiding them) but I’ll make myself watch them. It’s the uncertainty, the not knowing is what drives me crazy. The one thought that feels like the last chapter overcoming this fear! The last part holding is really that which ultimately drives me right back into my fear cycle

oatmilklatte

Date posted: Yesterday

Hi, I have this too. I knew it got bad when I smelled something nobody else did at the time and my brain spiraled. You’re not alone!!

Rrego1500

Date posted: Yesterday

@oatmilklatte Maaaaaaan let me tell you a quick funny story. I was so freaked out by the fucking fear I remember reading a story about how a women would smell stuff that wasn’t there….. I was driving one day at work and smelling tacos, I legit started panicking cuz I couldn’t figure out where the smell was coming from! I looked behind my seat and seen my co worker had brought tacos for lunch! I felt so frustrated for even going that far with it! 😂

Rrego1500

Date posted: Yesterday

@oatmilklatte But on another note, thank you! 🙏

oatmilklatte

Date posted: Yesterday

@Rrego1500 I feel you!! I think that’s cool that you can look back at that and even remember it as funny, even though I’m sure it definitely didn’t feel funny in the moment. Sometimes I can laugh about it, but when I’m triggered and really having those intrusive thoughts, it feels so serious. In my case I was sitting on the couch with my partner and smelled something burning. I looked everywhere, looked outside, compulsively checking everywhere and asking him if he smelled it, and he said no. I truly felt like it was “another sign” I was schizophrenic. I just started therapy with NOCD last week and I’m working on it with my therapist. If it helps, she said it’s a really common obsession!

Rrego1500

Date posted: Yesterday

@oatmilklatte Yes it is, many people have this fear. Unfortunately for me I have two uncles with schizophrenia which is why I get so triggered by it, I get so damn worried. I’m constantly telling my girl if I’m acting weird, always asking for reassurance! In the moments it’s not funny at all, I’m completely terrified. Only thing I can do is sit with it and see if it does happen which is hard for me! The “uncertainty” is so hard to accept!

Rrego1500

Date posted: Yesterday

@oatmilklatte Exposures help. Trust the process, I can certainly tell you I was a wreak a few weeks back to the point where I truly believed I had it. My therapist has been so helpful! The exposure are seriously so damn hard but keep at it.

Anonymous

Date posted: 13h

My dad had schizophrenia and there’s a genetic component to it so I do worry about it sometimes too. Hoping you get peace of mind soon. 💕

Rrego1500

Date posted: 12h

@Anonymous Yup, I know that thought all too well, runs through my mind many times, spend hours ruminating on it. Thank you though. Taking it day by day! I wish the same to you! Happy holidays

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