REOCD success stories?

It’s sounds like you’re really ruminating about things that happened in your past. For what it’s worth, I think grace is often hardest to extend to ourselves. I would focus on not ruminating and when you catch yourself ruminating so your best to stop and use exposure techniques.

Real Event OCD is difficult. The answer is not found in the past but in the present moment. My therapist often told me that you cannot think your way out of OCD; you have to behave your way out of it. This means withholding the response that OCD is seeking. With real event OCD, this is especially challenging because these thoughts are not hypothetical scenarios but events that actually occurred. That does not change the fact that they are still thoughts. You cannot know whether your past defines you as a bad person, nor can you know whether you are required to take responsibility for every action you have ever taken. I experience this thought daily. If someone were to meticulously examine my life from birth, I might be facing severe consequences, and yet the past no longer exists. The reason these thoughts are distressing now is because your values are changing. You are becoming someone who places greater importance on goodness and love. For OCD, this creates an ideal opportunity to exploit your developing identity and intensify self-doubt. As Alliesun mentioned, the most practical step is to eliminate rumination and other compulsive behaviors. In real event OCD, common compulsions include affect checking, mental review of past events, thought suppression, comparative self-evaluation for reassurance, reassurance seeking, and related mental rituals. All of these fall under the broader category of rumination, and reducing rumination is central to recovery. Also, if you have tik tok, follow: anthonyheals…. He posts a lot of stuff that has helped me tremendously and for me thats rare!