A CRY FOR HELP I'm having a really tough time, and I just need some words of encouragement. My obsessions have gotten out of hand. I'm not gonna include them because don't feel like triggering anyone, but I'll give a brief overview of them. I have sensorimotor obsessions, intrusive thoughts, intrusive obsessions about my body movement, intrusive thoughts about sounds, intrusive thoughts about thoughts, intrusive thoughts about what if accepting my thoughts like how my research has taught me is "wrong", intrusive thoughts about reality, etc, etc, etc. I'm always on the brink of a panic attack and I don't even feel alive anymore. I just feel like a husk, a shell. I went to a CBT therapist a couple months ago but it's clear she doesn't have a clue about OCD and she wasn't much help. I was reluctant to get on meds but now I might think it might be the only option. I feel like my mind is in a cage. I'm never free, I'm never happy. The few brief moments I have of freedom is just robbed by one of my many many obsessions. Again, I just feel like a husk of a human. It's so hard to accept these thoughts sometimes, sometimes my brain just doesn't have the capacity to. Like it can't picture itself as something not in distress. If I'm being honest, I'm thinking about throwing the towel in, if you get what I mean. Everywhere I look online concerning ocd seems to say it's an endless pool of misery with no way out. Everywhere I look is another horror story about a crippled life and I feel like one of them. Somebody please give me some words of encouragement, something. Please please please. Struggling to hold on Including a trigger warning just in case I guess And I'm not looking for someone to tell me I'm ok. Just want someone to give me a story of recovery, an example. Although I might have a bit of a reassurance/ research compulsion I need to get taken care of

Clb88

Date posted: 5y

Hang in there! I know it’s hell because it’s constant but you have to tell yourself that if this is what your life is going to be like than so be it. Give into it in a way. It’s a bully and if you feed into it and show it your fear the more it will come at you. Easier said than done I know. But I promise you that if you take it one day at a time and refuse to do the compulsions you can and will get better.

russelicott

Date posted: 5y

I can tell you speak with alot of wisdom. Thank you

sara235

Date posted: 5y

I know there are many cases of hopelessness online, but there is hope. With therapy and ERP, my life has improved considerably. I was so obsessed with illness that I would make myself actually sick with worry, and could barely focus on the things and people I love. I’m certainly not “cured” but the agony has diminished and I can enjoy my life. I hope the same for you—please do not give up hope.

russelicott

Date posted: 5y

Yeah I've made the decision to officially drop my research compulsion. It got to the point where I would read the same article over and over and over, seeking reassurance. Googling nonstop. If you looked at my history it would just be a book long list of different articles, videos, and testimonials of clinical studies of people "not recovering" and such. It's made my condition 200 percent worse, as compultions do

TorturedSoul

Date posted: 5y

Ocd is hell on earth ,Just remember ur alot stronger than you think <3

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

you can get better ?

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