- Date posted
- 3d
I’m hurt pls respond
I wanted to share an experience that triggered a lot of anxiety and OCD for me. I was on OmeTV and matched with a guy who said he was 24. I’m 17, and I told him I felt the age gap was inappropriate. He disagreed and then said he was live streaming. He asked his Twitch chat if the age gap was bad, and they said no, which felt like a red flag to me. He then told me that people in his chat were making rude comments about me and repeated some of them out loud, including calling me ugly and using racial slurs. He said there were around 50 people watching, but I don’t know how many people were actually commenting. Since then, I’ve been stuck in an OCD loop of ruminating and checking social media because I’m afraid the stream could have been recorded, posted somewhere, and go viral, and that I could become a meme or be publicly mocked. I know others have told me it was likely just trolls and to move on, but my brain keeps going to worst-case scenarios, and the fear feels very real. This obsession has been hard to let go of, and I’m looking for support on how to stop ruminating and checking.