- Date posted
- 6d
Christmas Music Obsessive Thoughts
Hey yall! I know this is weird. However, I’ve been having obsessive thoughts/anxiety about listening to Christmas music. Nothing about listening to Christmas music triggers me. However, I’m trying to train my brain into thinking that it’s no longer Christmas time and that Christmas is over on the 26th. I’ve been noticing that I’ve been doing reassurance methods by looking up if most people stop listening to Christmas music on December 26th. However, there’s no consistent answer. As a kid, I remember asking my mom if people listen to Christmas music after thanksgiving and then asking her is people listen to regular music again on December 26th thinking that this was everyone. She said yes. Years later when I was 15, a kid at school told me that he celebrated Christmas but he didn’t listen to Christmas music. I thought it was weird due to the fact that I thought my mom told me that everyone listens to Christmas music. I came home and asked my sister if it was weird that he didn’t listen to Christmas music. She then told me that kids don’t listen to Christmas music. Which changed made me feel like listening to regular music instead of Christmas music that year. Then, my cousin said the same thing my sister said on Christmas that year at my grandmas house when she was going to play music on her phone. I asked her if she was going to put on Christmas music. That’s when she said that kids don’t listen to Christmas music and that Christmas music was for adults only. As soon as my cousin said that. I realized that I didn’t listen to Christmas music that year, freaked out mentally, and started feeling depressed and having those thoughts tell me to listen to Christmas music. Those thoughts continued for about a month and a half afterwards. I didn’t give into them at all because I knew my mind was playing tricks on me due to the fact that they were unwanted thoughts. This was well before I officially got diagnosed with OCD. Now I get anxious whenever I listen to one regular song around Christmas time if I play it on my own. Last year, I started experiencing anxiety due to the fact that many people were wearing Christmas shirts at my work past Christmas. Those anxious thoughts were, “Oh no! Do most people celebrate Christmas until NYE?” Christmas is over on the 26th!.” Now those thoughts have triggered to “Oh no! Do most people listen to Christmas music until NYE?” I’ve been looking up those questions and haven’t been getting consistent answers mainly due to AI because I’m trying to find reassurance. This has been happening to me for 10 years. I just found out that I have OCD 6 months ago. I didn’t think this anxiety/depression could be OCD related. However, it seems like it is. Just wondering if this has ever happened to anyone else. To those of you who have made it this far, thanks for reading all the way through.