Seriously hoping ERP gets me my life back

Losing more sleep currently. I'm hoping I can still see my therapist today and just tell them all about this. I'm a little sick, and my throat will not stop getting dry. I've tried eating, lots and lots of water, and I've currently been drinking milk. It helped one day but not so much now. I want this to end. I want my life back. I want to be able to sleep again. I want my life back prior to OCD man. I can't deal with this anymore.

daviswoods

Date posted: 3d

currently dealing with the lack of sleep as well. got around 5 hrs and have been up for the last 2 hrs extremely anxious. body just feels twitchy and uneasy. we’re going to be fine my friend. let’s just keep at the ERP and will good things into fruition ❤️. sending you love and just know you’re not alone and we WILL get better soon

BigGyro09

Date posted: 3d

I haven't started yet but I really want to. I just want at least 4 hours of sleep so I can see my therapist.

daviswoods

Date posted: 3d

i’ve found some guided sleep meditations on youtube to be quite helpful. just look up “back to sleep” meditation and look for one that sounds nice. also, I’m starting to learn that the more pressure/emphasis we put on ourselves to sleep, the harder it is to sleep. it’s the same practice that they teach you in ERP — being comfortable with uncertainty. i.e. instead of being scared that you didn’t get enough sleep, tell yourself “so what that I didn’t get enough sleep? I’ll try a different nighttime routine tonight and see if that helps!” “I didn’t get much sleep last night, but I trust my body to function just fine regardless” etc

Anxious Chao

Date posted: 3d

Do you wanna chat? I’m experiencing the same thing and currently considering partial hospitalization again.

Hopeful 21

Date posted: 3d

Did the PHP help you?

Anxious Chao

Date posted: 3d

@Hopeful 21 I don’t know yet, I just felt relief when I was there. Then 2 years later I relapsed.

BigGyro09

Date posted: 2d

Sure. Did you eventually get sleep after writing this? I got only 4 hours of sleep after the fact.

Anxious Chao

Date posted: 2d

@BigGyro09 Only 2

BigGyro09

Date posted: 2d

@Anxious Chao Sorry to hear that. :( Is there anything that you can do to just get away from these thoughts and feelings for a bit? Like a game to play or maybe a happy place? Sometimes I do that when things feel like too much to deal with.

Anxious Chao

Date posted: 2d

@BigGyro09 I’m trying to but it’s impossible knowing I’ve been stalked and targeted. All my posts taken out of context and accused of other stupid shit because I was kind enough to share posts of missing people out of generosity. My ocs were also taken out of context including the manga I read so idk how to cope really.

BigGyro09

Date posted: 2d

@Anxious Chao I really wish there was some way I can help. I just wish there was some way to just make this all to away. I'm so sorry.

daviswoods

Date posted: 3d

also, not sure if you’re spiritual or not so I won’t get too specific, but I’ve found that talking to someone or something (even if it’s literally yourself) will trick you into sleeping. like just literally lay there in the position that you would normally sleep in with your eyes closed and just say how you’re feeling out loud, say what you want, hell go on a rant or something about literally anything it doesn’t matter. but you’ll notice yourself start to fall asleep, and you’re vocalizing how you’re feeling as well

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