Transgender OCD again ☹️ - PLEASE COMMENT.

Hello. I seriously don’t know whether I’m just doubting my gender because of OCD or if it was just meant to happen. I haven’t seen many people struggle with this so that makes it 10x worse. I get mad when my homophobic and transphobic dad makes mean comments and it scares me because why am I getting upset over something that doesn’t affect me? Genuinely I need some help. I’m starting therapy on Thursday and I’m so scared of being misdiagnosed or just being told “it’s okay to question your gender” when that’s not what I’m doing at all. I also went through this alternative phase where I thought I was she/they but idk. I mean sure it’s fine, but she/her in my opinion is easier. I don’t think I’d ever tell everyone my pronouns anyway. I don’t care when someone calls me she/her it’s just a normal regular thing for me. Any tips please

Anonymous

Date posted: 2d

i had this when i was 14/15. the feeling of uncertainty was just unbearably terrifying… until it slowly stopped being so. mostly because it gave way to other types of ocd but it’s difficult to accept ambiguity but accepting ambiguity will make the fear go away, and only then can you peacefully and clearly explore what the right answer could be. there may be no answer

Ringbear

Date posted: 2d

I’m having the same stuff. You’re not alone in this. I just got into a relationship a few days ago so it’s been bad.

sealssheepan...

Date posted: 2d

@Ringbear I’m sorry that sucks 😕

Megan Banks

Date posted: 2d

I’m so sorry that you are struggling.. I wish I could help but I don’t have the same type as you. I wish you much love and care. 💕

sealssheepan...

Date posted: 2d

@Megan Banks Thank you again ❤️

OutstandingC...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2d

Are you going to an ocd specialist or a general therapist?

sealssheepan...

Date posted: 2d

@OutstandingCutieDisorder I’m only going to a psychologist I’m just super worried due to my age that she’s going to immediately think I’m just questioning like a normal teenager

Alliesun

Date posted: 2d

@sealssheepandkiwi Is it possible for you to get a therapist through here on NOCD? I assume since you’re young you’re on your parent’s insurance. You should see if your parents’ insurance will pay for a NOCD therapist. Different therapists take different insurance, like I found one that took mine. I have done regular therapy before and personally didn’t find it helpful because some of the normal things a regular therapist will have you do aren’t good for OCD symptoms. Either way, good luck with your therapy journey. I had OCD in my teens, so I know your pain.

sealssheepan...

Date posted: 2d

@Alliesun I’m going to cry. I’m so worried that because it revolves around my identity that it’s true. Everyone who is trans questions in their teens. I’m so scared.

Alliesun

Date posted: 2d

@sealssheepandkiwi This uncertainty is a big part of OCD. OCD hinges on the “what ifs” of life. You will learn in exposure response therapy how to deal with intrusive thoughts and rumination, both of which you seem to be experiencing right now. OCD can feel heavy and horrible, but know that you can overcome those emotions and learn to live your life without allowing OCD to intrude so much.

OutstandingC...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: Yesterday

@sealssheepandkiwi I would highly recommend seeing an ocd specialist instead of a regular therapist. An ocd specialist would be able to recognize this as an ocd obsession, whereas a regular therapist will have a higher chance of thinking you’re “just questioning.” Either way, good luck and I hope it goes well for you!

Cupake21211

Date posted: 2d

Omg I had this phase where I was scared I was trans but that fear came from actually thinking maybe men have it easier than females then I learn men have there own struggles but yes I felt stuck and I would keep doubting if I am another gender or not but yes now I am much better but it was a horrible phase

sealssheepan...

Date posted: Yesterday

@Cupake21211 YES!!! HOLY COW THATS HOW IT HAPPENED FOR ME TOO 😭😭 god I’m so happy I’m not alone

Cupake21211

Date posted: Yesterday

@sealssheepandkiwi I swear and it’s like it was a horrible phase because I know it’s not true but I could not prove it

Cupake21211

Date posted: Yesterday

Yeah and I also felt like I was stuck in my gender like I was forced like especially I had to go to another country like where my grandparents were and I had to stay only at home so I felt like idk how to explain it like I was stuck in my body and it was horrible

Cupake21211

Date posted: Yesterday

How many of you guys are really sensitive

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