How do I calm down?

Thanks gave into a compulsion and panicked

@JS0406 Dont worry we all make mistakes. Best thing to do is mess up the compulsion.

@Daffodil Now I’m depressed

@JS0406 Its okay, you're too hard on yourself OCD is a bully

@Daffodil I feel guilty because I just know it makes me feel worse.

@JS0406 It's okay, accept the feeling and then try your best to move on.

@Daffodil I’m trying but it’s like it’s pulling me in and trying to get me to do another compulsion, I just want it to stop.

@JS0406 Have you tried the SOS feature on the app?

@JS0406 Ocd makes me depressed and ppl say it doesnt

@Daffodil Yeah I’ve tried it but I don’t know what else to think about

@Peridottttt Me too! Depression is definitely a symptom of my OCD. OCD can make me withdrawn, hate myself and then I become depressed. Depression is quite common with OCD unfortunately.

@JS0406 I wish I could be more help to you, I'm in the middle of a depressive episode currently as a result of my OCD. All I can say is that these feelings pass, if you're able to concentrate maybe watch a film you like or call a friend?

@Daffodil It’s ok you can’t help me more than you can, I tried watching a film but get triggered and can’t even watch tv.

@JS0406 I understand that. Theres so many things I cant watch at the moment

@Daffodil There’s triggers everywhere.

@Daffodil Is it normal to not remember things, I can’t even remember what I did an hour ago?

@JS0406 when we are panicked we cant remember everything our brains go into survival mode. I'm a hypocrite but try and get some distance from the thoughts

@Daffodil It feels like I’ve been brainwashed.

@JS0406 My feelings exactly! ocd has brainwashed me

@Daffodil It’s quite scary because sometimes I can’t remember simple things and embarrassing.

@JS0406 I can imagine it would be really scary! Have you spoken to anyone about it? There might be a simple explanation

@Daffodil No just people on here, I’m going to try get help after Christmas so I can start to sort out my life, I think the memory is just that I’m unable to focus enough to think logically because they’re like fog in my brain.

@JS0406 That's good you have an outlet!And it's good you're going to get help. I'm seeing a new therapist on monday so hopefully she can help me. I want to be able to return to normal life soon, a life that isnt stuck on my sofa.

@Daffodil Haven’t been out my house for three weeks but got to go out next week for appointments. I know that doesn’t help being inside but I can’t be in busy places without getting triggered.

@JS0406 I understand. I quit my job because I couldnt cope with being triggered.

@Daffodil Yeah same I was in a temporary work placement which ended in September and haven’t done anything since.

@JS0406 The best thing to remember is that things are temporary

@Daffodil Hopefully I’ll be able to be happy again I’m hanging on.