I grew up in a religious family. Now, I can't relate to religious people much. That includes my family members. I get irritated and cry when I talk about "God's rules". I avoid talking about the "end of times" because it makes me overthink about the future and possible horrible events that could happen.
Hey, I understand that fully. When I was going through psychological torment from someone who would make me do despicable actions, I would pray more than 100 times a day. Each time I felt I had to perfect my prayers in order for my someone to save me from what this person was putting me through against my will. Now that it's over finally, I've been questioning my faith. Religious trauma can come from anyone, even yourself, considering I gave myself that trauma, I would literally have a shaky breath and tell myself "I love Jesus Christ" over and over again until I felt calm. I would beg for forgiveness, try to avoid ANY type of sin, all for the sake of my survival. Now, I thank God for everything that was given to me through blessings, but at the same time, I ask myself, "why did God put me through indescribable horror, yes I was able to push through thankfully, but, why?" Now I cant even open my phone without being afraid. So I understand what you mean in a sense. I would feel nauseous trying to stop doing things considered sins and honestly I struggle with this too. I just wanted to share my experience if it can help you feel a sense of peace that you don't have to go through this without a friend, I'll be there for you, and so will many other people.
@YouAreLoved. Thank you so much. 🫂 My family put me through a lot of anxiety telling me that I am putting my salvation at risk because I don't want to talk to them. I WANT PEACE 🗣️🗣️🗣️ And then I am crying thinking that I'm wrong.
@y_y Of course. I am always here if you ever want to reach out, and I want peace too, REALLY badly. I trust you'll be able to get away from the situation thats been bothering you, wishing you the best and countless support 🫂.
Strict religions have a tendency to mimic OCD in my experience. All or nothing, right & wrong, chanting/ praying to feel better or “clean” from sin. “The end of times”- very existential & scary. There is a lot of nuance & grey area in life that’s not typically represented.
@OCDisPartofMe This!!! 🔥🔥🔥 I want to live the day by day. I can't be worried about the future. And then they say "oh you need to get right with God to be afraid of the end of times". Come on! Every time I get anxious I'm here praying God because I feel the worse person ever.
I totally get this. I try to be more religious and in my faith but things like this can definitely get in the way and make it challenging. Even if you’re not religious though, it makes sense that you would feel maybe a disconnect or apathy to religious people or your family, especially if you’re not connected to the faith personally OR it brings up negative thoughts or feelings. You’re valid. I’m sorry this is affecting you
@maybeitsocd I think that everyone has their own path. I am more spiritual. I don't like to be told what to wear or what to do because I lived in slavery my whole childhood. I just want to heal that area, but I get triggered every time I see injustice because I want to follow my own path.
Yes I get this. I try to strengthen faith and be religious but it’s so hard because I just think into everything that is said. it feels like impossible to be religious sometimes
@leamae16! I hate religion. People is so judgemental, The feel like saints. We are not perfect and that's why we seek God.
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