POCD and Trauma Kinks Struggles

Hi everyone. I have many forms of OCD but one that I struggle with the most is POCD. When I was 18, my father went to prison for sexual crimes against children and ever since then I have been struggling with POCD and trauma related kinks from things that happened with my father as a child. Sometimes I worry that my kinks blur a line and I'm actually attracted to children. I work with children and am definitely not attracted to them, but my trauma kinks mesh with my POCD and I obsess about the possibility of being a pedophile. Does this happen to anyone else? How do you overcome it and find a balance? I am 100% not attracted to children, but the moments where my OCD runs wild are unbearable

Jesse1982

Date posted: Yesterday

Hello I have many forms of ocd too, the one I struggle with the most is also pocd and I have to young daughters. Ocd has made me do stuff I regret and haunt me till this day. It messes with your head and attacks what you love the most. I'm a correctional officer and when I started my career i was around actual pedophiles it was scary and new to me then I had my daughters and I was questioning everything I did. But you are not alone and I'm here to help

Kylin

Date posted: 20h

Thank you so much. I appreciate you

Alliesun

Date posted: Yesterday

Part of learning to live with OCD is to accept the uncertainty of a situation and to realize that “what ifs” don’t need to be answered. So instead of saying “I’m not a ___, say “I don’t need to analyze this. No amount of analysis will give me 100% certainty.” Try that with your POCD obsessions. Accepting uncertainty is scary, but it helps you to adapt to having OCD and learning to control it. Good luck!

Kylin

Date posted: 20h

Thank you! I will try that!

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