Questions to you guys + why am I like this

You guys know that one tweet where user is like "I like pancakes" and the other one is "OH SO YOU HATE WAFFLES" that's me and my OCD eachtime- especially when I talk to my friends and others. Just now I was just chatting with a friend and I tried my best to sound lively and cracked some jokes and did some silly stuff- they were also talking about past experiences about someone and I feel as if my OCD makes me watch what I say which then leads me to being like: "Oh so (I really think about it, OCD is not liking the idea of me saying that)... nevermind. But I can say *blah blah*. (OCD did not like that.)" And then I had to walk and talk with a random classmate for a class question, I just went "So like *blah blah blah* so like uhm- I... then there's... yeah" and then I went back to my friend and went back to chatting. --- Class ends. I walk out of class, and instead of being like oh hey I talked to someone again, my minds like: "What was that?! Why did your voice sound like that??? You're not like this at ALL what are you doing?! Omg now they think you're odd and weird, when you said _ and did _ trying to be silly oh my goodness at this point just be quiet for the rest of the day. Gosh!" And etc. Instead of asking for reassurance, instead I'm just going to ask you guys, what are some embarrassing odd conversations you had with others? Or something you did out of character. I just need to feel less alone and not feel like an alien. T^T

Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 21h

Please keep in mind that OCD is dedicated to ruining your day. For every positive, it's the disorder offers a negative. The best way to deal with it is to say "so what," and just let it go. Don't try try to block, just be indifferent to it. Eventually, it will dissipate.

Tea and Honey

Date posted: 20h

My OCD has made talking to people very hard. Although it's gotten way better. Certain words are "safe" and certain words and phrases are not safe, and I used to change my words that I wanted to say over to the safe ones. I was changing what I was saying and never talking the way that I wanted to. It was very miserable. I can totally relate to you. ERP therapy can help you a TON with this. I highly recommend getting some good ERP therapy.

VVbee

Date posted: 19h

Yes! I do the exact thing you just described, many times when I do this- I'd expect myself to feel much better for saying the safer words or adding in a few extra words to make sure my point comes across to make sure they know I feel this way but at the end I just feel odd or a bit nervous . It also leads to me end up stuttering or saying "I forgot" or "nevermind" and I just sound incredibly awkward and I'm like- whyyy ?! <:") I do believe that ERP could help me, I plan to do that in the future but for now I just gotta do the "Maybe I did sound awfully awkward, maybe I sounded like not myself- but oh well" uncertainty ordeal .

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