No Safe Space

My mom is mad at me again in the midst of a severe OCD flare. I know it's all overwhelming. But it's also overwhelming to know I'm not emotionally safe in my own home

MR.25.25

Date posted: 17h

I just got in a fight with my mom and my dad and my husband last night hang in there I understand it sucks when people are not patient when your hurting and emotionally vulnerable it’s exhausting for them too like it’s us so patience isn’t always easy for them they are people too struggling with thier own problems and it’s hard for them to see people like us hurt and deal with the compulsions we have I wonder if they have support groups for them like we do just be patient with yourself and understand that healing is a process I hope this helps I’m literally going through the same thing right now

Madisonporfe

Date posted: 17h

@MR.25.25 I’m sorry to hear that. I’ve just been very emotionally alone for an extremely long time. I learned long ago my family can’t handle it. So I’ve talked to no one. And I’ve done compulsions to keep myself at bay for ever cause I know I can’t afford to be not okay. I love my family, but I don’t feel emotionally safe in my own home. I don’t know what to do. I know it’s hard on them. I do. But kicking me while I’m down is only making it worse

MR.25.25

Date posted: 17h

@Madisonporfe I totally understand everything you just said I feel that with my soul i have felt alone for a long time as well no one to talk too everyone gets annoyed and angry it sucks because even though they know what it is or even have it like my dad they still don’t always have the patience right now I’m starting therapy and starting ERP the first time I don’t know if you tried it or not but I have heard good things I have no friends just my husband and family but none of them are patient enough to help and it makes worse the kicking while down I experience on a daily right now what I’m struggling with the most is ROCD which is putting my marriage in a bad place my husband doesn’t have the patience anymore and my parents are telling me that I’m ruining my marriage it sucks because ocd takes up my whole day when I have 2 kids and have to take care of so i totally get how lonely it feels I had ocd even as kid and my parents where not the most patient people some days they where great others they would yell this support group and my therapist is currently all I got since I have really no friends to talk to but if you have any friends you can trust I’d suggest consoling in them as best as you can without seeking reassurance even though I know it’s extremely hard I’m sorry your going through this I am trying to see about getting on medication and getting referred to a psychiatrist there’s things that can help with ocd but it doesn’t take away from the pain and suffering it causes for us especially when we have to do this on our own that’s literally something I was bursting into tears about the other day we really should be proud of ourselves though because handling it on our own isn’t easy at all especially if unmedicated I hope you can find a good support system just understand this isn’t your fault being born with this disease it’s a cruel disease also known as the doubting disease and isn’t easy to have but recovery is possible

MR.25.25

Date posted: 17h

Also sorry not the best at spelling typing or punctuation so I hope this all makes sense

Anonymous

Date posted: 14h

Oh yeah my dad gets mad at me all the time. His most recent anger towards me was because I was shutting myself in my room all day and sleeping till late because of my mental issues. He said I'm not the only one with mental problems and that I have to be part of the household. I now get forced to get out of bed in the morning :| I'm trying to let it go and just take care of myself and do things my own way in spite of the pressure being out on me. I also am trying to go outside more, by going on walks and studying in libraries and hanging out with my boyfriend and friends. I hope you can find your way :)

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