Rocd TRIGGER WARNING

If you find a mark on your partner that looks like a hicky does it mean it is even when they even say it looks like one but asks you if you given them one and say that they don’t know where it came from this is something that’s been bothering me forever and I keep having him swear to GOD over and over again I feel bad because he gets very angry and is tired of being accused I don’t know how to stop though I feel physically sick too because of the worries and urge to ask what’s funny is I suppose I could have given it to him but don’t really remember doing so and he says he would never cheat because he doesn’t wanna put a curse on our family he’s very religious but I asked him if he felt that way before marriage he replied it’s all fun and games till married and said he immediately knew that he shouldn’t have said that because he knew that would set me off and I’d take it the wrong way and he got very angry because I was freaking out he told me he was repeating something he heard when he was younger and I took it the wrong way but I’m worried what if that’s a possible indicator he was unfaithful before our marriage he’s sworn on the Bible for me in the past that he’s been faithful and swears to GOD OVER AND OVER AGAIN EVERY DAY because that’s the only way I feel better I know this is sick and wrong I’m taking advantage of his faith too by doing this I feel like a monster and feel bad but it’s like I can’t stop am I horrible person has anyone ever experienced this now my parents are mad at me saying I’m ruining our marriage and screaming at me it makes it worse last night my husband and I said some horrible things to eachother and we both feel bad he really is a amazing man but has been pushed too far everyone has a breaking point but being yelled at makes it worse we really do love eachother and he understands ocd but he is tired of the questioning and does not have the same amount of patience he once did is it possible for us to heal from this and me trust him all my past relationships where horrible and extremely abusive he’s the first man to be faithful and NEVER lay hands on me I don’t wanna loose him I can’t I wouldn’t be able to live I wouldn’t want to any advice or am I just too broken for him ???