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Oh my goodness, I'm so sorry . I've been there a few months ago, it was the most TORTUROUS ever- I felt like my life was over . I know you can't just distract yourself out of those fears, when you're so scared and sick it's almost as it feels impossible to escape I get that . I haven't been on any social media that have old accounts because I know that if I find the messages I will never stop reading and go into a spiral . I'd suggest you don't go on any social media that have the old accounts either so you won't do the mistake of spirling into the old chats- But seriously do NOT do any more compulsions, the more I did I would just dig deeper and deeper into my mind and I wouldn't do anything throughout the days besides trying to figure out whether I'm doomed or not . Whether people will expose me, I still get scared to this day but with the uncertainty I at least have more of the feeling to just say "I can't remember if this happened or not... oh well" and move on with what's present . Other than that just try and attempt to do anything hobbies that you like or distract yourself with anything, if OCD wants to call you a monster tell it to get lost . I know this is hard but I believe you can do it <:^(💜

-hugs- I know you are hurting. Thank you for sharing.

im so sorry :( ive done the same. Stay strong okay? This happens to all of us and its heartbreaking. You can move past this ❤️❤️

Hey, you’re not alone. I’m also experiencing an extremely intense relapse. Weirdly enough, ten years to the date that of my first OCD diagnosis.

Don't be upset everyday is a working progress to reach your goal and fear

I took a whole hour trying to find clothes cause if I wore certain cloths then a loved one would die😭you can do it friend! You will be okay 🙏

I struggle similarly- you can and will overcome this! I am praying for you!

Hello Generiname, I see you are struggling with having spent 9 hours checking. With OCD the urge to "figure it out" can be intense, as if we think a fire is raging. The problem with this is thinking about a fire, is quite different than a fire occurring. When engaging in compulsions such as checking, this continues to train the brain to treat the thought as a threat. Further it increases the brains desire to engage in compulsions. Even though there was a distressing day, it's never to late to get back into practice with resisting compulsions and living with uncertainty. A destressing thought can be there, but it doesn't mean we have to respond. I hope this message reaches you well and know that at NOCD, we are always here to help! Take care, Ian M. Reeder

I get what you're feeling, I'm sorry you're going through it too ❤️ you're stronger than your thoughts