POCD- I need help

I just ended a really major anxiety/ocd spike from this week.. I had another anxiety attack last night because of intrusive thoughts again and the thought the anxiety dying down was me “accepting” I was a p.. This morning, the intrusive thoughts haw kinda dyed down but my anxiety has NOT. It’s still on high alert and I FEEL like an actual monster. Or that I am what I fear and I just accepted it… Anyone with POCD been through this before?…

TE1022

Date posted: 7w

First off.. just wanna say. The fact you’re freaking out over feeling like a monster. Pretty much solidifies you’re not a monster, the actual monsters aernt sitting around acared of what they “think” amd “feel” like they are. Ocd is the same old song and dance but it just latches onto different things for diff people. You are not a monster. Monsters don’t fight there thoughts, they don’t hate their thoughts, You’ve gotta regroup. Know that ocd is bullshit, and it’s feeding you bullshit to keep your attention, And decide your gonna let the thoughts come and go and gove them as little attention as possible. And your not gonna be perfect, your gonna have tough moments, but your never going to give up on yourself. Your mind will be a peaceful place again you just have to put in the consistent work

BellaBirdy

Date posted: 7w

@Embo20 Thank you so so much.. this helped a ton

Speckles

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 7w

Yes... it's terrible. I'm sorry you are going thru it as well. You aren't that.. that's why you fear it so much and the anxiety is so high. I'm still struggling with the anxiety and depression daily. I can hardly function. I wish I had some good advice. Are you on meds? Seeing a therapist?

BellaBirdy

Date posted: 7w

@Speckles Thank you.. I was seeing a therapist but I can’t afford it. And I had not tried meds at all

Speckles

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 7w

@BellaBirdy That's the problem they can be so expensive. Are there any local resources that might be able to help?

BellaBirdy

Date posted: 7w

@Speckles Luckily yes! I’m looking around for cheaper options…

Speckles

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 6w

@BellaBirdy I know it's hard investigating all of this when you feel this way. I've been putting so much off bc I don't have the motivation to do it. Did you find anything?

BellaBirdy

Date posted: 6w

@Speckles No not really… and I’m in the same spot. I feel like I don’t deserve to heal or to do fun things because I’ve convinced myself I’m the thing I fear. :( how about you?

Speckles

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 5d

@BellaBirdy Sorry didn't get back. Yes...I feel the same way. I don't even feel human anymore. I wish there was something I could say that would help. My husband I believe wants to put me away. Please reach out out me. Maybe we can help each other. I've become an alcoholic and can't sleep. This whole thing is a nightmare.

N111

Date posted: 2d

@Speckles I feel the same way as you guys do, i used to struggle with nasty intrusive thoughts that would make me feel horrible and i dealt with it in very unhealthy ways. But i am doing a lot better now after realizing those thoughts are not mine. I found it helpful to separate those thoughts from my own. acknowledging that I am not thinking them and just because its in my mind doesnt mean I actually believe it. Your mind thinks so many things but you wouldnt say all of those things out loud. I deal with a lot of tics with my ocd and i found that shaking my head helped me feel like i was getting rid of those “bad” thoughts physically. maybe that might help, otherwise hang in there, your thoughts dont define who you are, its just severe overthinking :)

Anonymous

Date posted: 7w

You got this, hang in there ok

MarcSharc

Date posted: 6d

Yes. It's an awful feeling, but YOU WILL GET THROUGH. I've been struggling for a month with P. Keep to your regular schedule. You RULE over OCD, don't let it RULE over you.

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