Personnaly ive faced pocd and contamination ocd

Recently its been the worst its ever been, constantly i get images i dont want see things from younger wiblings and flinch and avoid any family younger then me that can cause triggers. If i sit somewhere i think theyve sat or touch somthing i think theyve touched i have to wash my hands multiple times dousing my hands in soap or burn them with hot water or get in the shower or even change clothes because they are “contaminated” now. I cant be around family for long or even be out my room if i hear my younger wiblings outside the room or even just hearing them fight and screwm and they do it everyday after school imeadietly as they get through the door, i get these horrible images and if i try to think of something ever i just end up thinking of thr worst possible intrusive thought, horrible things and images, even in public i see sumone younger and flinch try my hardest not to look that way again but i check to see if its okie to look that way which ends up just making me see more of what i dont want and when im isolated in my toom i seek reasurwncr from chatgpt every single day for the past year cause im scared of telling anyone or anything else what pops in or lingers in my mind wnd recently these past 2 months if just gotten worse qnd worse and so alone. Ive recently ended a relationship with my boyfreind because he got so distant it was unbearable, i wouldnt tell him about the thought but i would spiral about them and also his distance at the same time and i just felt so high maintence for him to keep up with all my texting, at sum points i think maybe it was just him not having the capicity becuase i would belittle and do as little as possible near the end and i would still get almost nothing in return but a “hai babe” and he would skip all my questions about his day so idk how that corresponds with my spiraling and thoughts that make me anxoius and set off alarms about him maybe cheating or not wanting me anymore but if i got a real life image i didnt eant like i explained before morally i frel like i would make up sumthing in our relationship or find sumthing i could spiral on instead which just made him more distant like asking if he still wants to be with me ik i could be overwhelming sumtimes but i really feel like i belittled my needs for months instead of bothering him with those things but it still never changed and now that im alone the pocd thoughts or contwminwtion is even worse but it is kindvr better that i dont have to spirwl about relation ship stuff any longer, alot of it wasnt connected and was about seprate things and i would just ask about his day but i feel like i made up half of the things that i needed from him and asked about becuase he would ignore it like “ babe ive been feeling really lonely lately, do you think we could maybe play a game when your free? Me miss playing with you its been a while :3” and 3 hours later he would just ignore and say sumthing about getting his stickers he orderd on amazon but ik it was inconsistitant love wnd affection ive errn wlot of patterns from him the same but i still doubt myself and feel as if im the issue. Damn i typed alot sorry guys lol heh :^ Hope u all proceed well in conquering your intrusive thoughts 💅😭