Hypersexuality/Flare ups/Ehh.. : (

Had an episode last night, Real Event OCD started flaring onto me- so did other subtypes, and my dog keeps following me and sniffing/grabbing/humping at me and only me and my mom asked why he is acting that way towards me recently which got me really scared- because I heard that dogs can sniff cancer and stuff so BOOM health OCD now onto me . I was FREAKING out. Did NOT help that my dog began to cry when I was gone. On the sprinkle of that, hypersexuality came at me again- fell into it and after it all faded I just felt super dirty and scared . + the intrusive thoughts during it and after were uncomfortable. Thankfully it's not awfully bad as it was in the past, and the relapse is normally only one time every few who knows how long but I always just feel super adultish (not in a good way) and like an object. If that makes sense I just don't like it . :^( I end up feeling super shaky . Other than that- that's that. I still feel depressed and extremely dissociated, I didn't have a good dream. School was cancelled today so yay ! But at the same time why do I have to feel this way when I have a break. <:") I feel like I can't look at anyone or do anything because I feel such a monster at the moment or some sort of freak.. arghhshhsh . Now that "monster freak" is going to still have desert and do fun stuff because there's no school duh, but also is going to cry while doing it because this still hurts. 😞 + no social media for sure for sure . Have a good day everyone..!

invaderzim

Date posted: 4d

i relate a lot and im sorry sending hugs and im here to talk!

VVbee

Date posted: 3d

Thank you..! <:")🫂 I'm glad we're in this together, I still have thoughts that stresses me out then and there but good thing is that overall I am feeling better

JaneWiedmann

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 3d

Hang in there! You’re fallible, but you’re not a monster. Just a human doing their best. 💐💐💐

VVbee

Date posted: 2d

Thank you so much, 💜💜💜 I am hanging on and I try my best to stay as strong as I can be <: )

kj38805

Date posted: 3d

I relate a lot! That sounds like a rough day. I’ve struggled with hypersexuality too, it was such a difficult symptom for me, lmk if you’d like advice, I’ve been recovered from it for a year now. I hope you have a good rest of your day! <3

VVbee

Date posted: 2d

Ah, yes if you do have advice I'd like to know ! Thank you :^) and I am doing quite better now despite having some ups and downs . I also do hope you have an amazing day yourself 🙂‍↕️✨️

kj38805

Date posted: 2d

@VVbee Thank you! Things that helped me were building up my confidence and self worth (which I didn’t think would help but it turned out caring about myself more helped me to have motivation to not do things I wasn’t comfortable with, and objectifying myself less), practicing self compassion, urge surfing (which is really hard but so rewarding), healing from trauma, building healthier relationships where I feel respected, and finding ways to lessen stress (since my hypersexuality is often triggered by stress). Now I still have similar urges sometimes, but I have very few times where I actually fall back into the same behavior. For me it took me about a year and a half to get to this point, it takes time but it’s so worth it. I hope you find things that help you too! 😊

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