Harm ocd event pls help

I have harm ocd and false memory ocd and last Saturday night I was in a pub and I had to go to the bathroom, on the walk there, I saw a woman standing close to the bathroom on her own and I got an intrusive thought to attack her, when I got back to my table, my knee was really sore and I had a small bruise on it, didn’t think much of it at the time, I was just confused as to why it hurt cause I couldn’t remember any impact. Later that night when I got into bed, I realised my knee started hurting just as I got back to my table and then I remembered the girl standing at the bathroom and my heart sank, I’m now worried that I had sex with her and can’t remember all the details or worse committed a crime and that’s why my knees are bruised and sore, I don’t drink because of my ocd so surely I’d remember every detail right?, the last few days have been horrible, I cant eat and all I want to do is find answers. Any tips cause it’s taking over my whole life?

KCSM67

Date posted: 2d

This sounds like what I struggle with too . just remember ocd attacks your values someone who hurt a woman like that wouldn’t be worrying like you are now. A bruise could’ve been from anything . Hope this helped a little

Megan Banks

Date posted: 2d

@KCSM67 You’re right about the bruise thing. When I was younger I used to get random bruises for some reason, never had any sort of injury they just appeared. Our bodies can be interesting sometimes 😂

KCSM67

Date posted: 2d

@Megan Banks Same hereee

Ih8ocd!

Date posted: Yesterday

@KCSM67 Thanks for your comment, I’m just freaked out cause I can’t remember what the bathroom I went too looked like at all even though I wasn’t even drinking so my ocd is telling me ‘see you can do things and not remember’ which is giving the thought more power

KCSM67

Date posted: Yesterday

@Ih8ocd! Trust me ocd lovess what you can’t remember, even nights I hadn’t been drinking I still don’t remember too clearly it’s prob just because our minds are thinking too much but I’m not completely sure why that happens. It definitely seems real and scary but most likely is not or I’m sure you’d have been confronted by anyone and remembered that. I really struggle with what I can’t remember as well and my mind will automatically jump to I did something horrible when no one has said I have.

Ih8ocd!

Date posted: Yesterday

@KCSM67 Yeah that’s what I’m telling myself, not remembering what the bathroom looked like + knee pain + intrusive thought just makes the thought so strong, it really has taken over my life I’m sad to say

Ih8ocd!

Date posted: Yesterday

@KCSM67 Worst thing is, I wasn’t even really worried about it the rest of the night or even most of the next day, it was the Monday tha the fear really hit me

KCSM67

Date posted: Yesterday

@Ih8ocd! that’s a roughhh one I swear situations like this happen to me too but it’ll be random situations like your explaining but from years ago or stuff that didn’t bother me the day of or next day as well

Ih8ocd!

Date posted: Yesterday

@KCSM67 I didn’t drink due to my ocd but do you think it’s weird I can’t remember what the bathroom looked like at all?

KCSM67

Date posted: Yesterday

@Ih8ocd! no I don’t think that’s weird insignificant details like what a bathroom may have looked like are easily forgotten . I forgot how bathrooms I just used look bc it’s not important

Ih8ocd!

Date posted: 22h

@KCSM67 Th and it’s just the pain in my knee and the not remembering the bathroom made me think I had to have attacked the woman I saw on the way to the bathroom

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