I really need help. I have been struggling awfully with my ocd recently it started off as pocd and I still have that but now I am constant ly and I mean constantly whenever something isn't occupying my mind thinking of the worst thing possible and it is destroying me, has anyone else had this, like I'll be playing with the dogs and I'll get the thought to sexually assault it then I'll try ignore it and do something else. I get thoughts about stuff that is the worst stuff I can imagine and it feels like I'm doing it on purpose even though I hate these thoughts and I would never ever want the thoughts to happen. Any advice would mean the world to me right now, I'm having a breakdown and I've got nothing but this app

I don't know how to find an ocd therapist I've never done therapy before I'm meeting with a college councillor on thursday but I dont know what to tell her

@Will 7 If you're in the UK theres a BACP register where you can find therapists who specialise in CBT/ERP

It's best to do ERP with a therapist at first, but that's really admirable to do ERP on your own.

A conversation might help! What I do is I picture the thoughts in my head drifting away. Or like floating away down a river. I know that sounds really weird but it works pretty well! Doing something engaging is also good sometimes, going on my phone usually doesn't do it for me. Also when you see the counselor just tell her that you're having unwanted thoughts that upset you. She probably will ask what they're about but you shouldn't have to say anything that's too upsetting/traumatic to disclose. Also psychology today has a really good therapist finder !! Best of luck :)

@ocdjosuke Thankyou so much for your help and I will have a look at that website now. Your a life saver

That's bad to hear, do you mind if you tell me what your experiencing? You dont have to and I dont judge no matter what

I'm so sorry I know how tough it can be, all my thoughts are sexual related idk why I'm only 16 and I miss my old life so much, try talking to someone we have nothing to lose with all this suffering we are going through

@Will 7 Have you gone on the website intrusivethoughts.org ? There are a lot of resources there for your theme

I know it's so hard neither of my parents get it I just want someone to speak with, try and sign yourself for therapy, do what's best for you, we have so much to life for and this shitty illness is not who we are as tough as it seems we can get through it