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Thank you so much for your support!! It is really scary 😓 and even scarier chatgpt told me it sounds less like ocd 💔

@Anonymous chat gpt is my worst enemy right now… i got into a relationship with my bf and ROCD is eating me alive… we got this🫶🏻

@Anonymous I've experienced rocd too, sooo hard :( yes we've got this 👍

It's been constant for months, had an episode start in June that didn't feel as real, then in late October I first experienced this "knowing" sensation. It's horrible, but relieving to know I'm not the only one. Stay strong ❤️ would you say that "knowing" feeling feels pretty constant for you, like kind of at the back of your mind?

@Anonymous Remember, it’s very common for it to “feel different this time”. It’s been constant for me in varying degrees for a very long time, much longer than you, and I have a constant knot/sinking feeling in pit of stomach, and although it pipes up still, it doesn’t scream as much as it used to, just a constant pit and commentary in my head and that makes me scared it’s me arguing with my intuition. I am always worried about whether I’m anxious enough or it is noisy enough to be OCD. I know I have OCD but ROCD/SOOCD feel different from any other themes I’ve experienced - they are more sticky and stubborn and longer lasting. I think they are the most ambiguous subsets though as relationship and identity doubts are normalised in society, whereas it’s easier to rationalise some subsets as “irrational” like, for example, Harm OCD, but there are more nuances and grey areas with these subsets, which means OCD can produce an endless list of doubts and it can feel realistic. It’s moved to emotional connection for me as well, which is the absolute worst as I used to be able to reassure myself by saying a relationship isn’t based on sex, but it’s morphed into the romantic part now and that’s even scarier! I hope that’s a reflection of OCD doing what it can do to become more and more convincing, opposed to it being part of the coming out process. It feels so real, it’s horrible and I hate it!