Sorry for such a long post i need to talk

I have a big trouble with my age Like since i was 14 my birthday is at june but the moment december hit i felt 15,now i'm 15 and i feel 16 or 17,like when i see someone who has "15" in their bio i feel as i cannot interact with them because they could be freshly 15 and they'll be 7 months younger and that'll make me weird for even liking their post or smth💔 I cannot bare it i feel weird for finding an character that i made who is 3 weeks older than me attractive since i feel 16 (even tho the character will be 16 before me😐) Also i feel weird for saying i'm just 15 and not 15 and half but now i'm 15 and 7 months so idk how to label it anymore,I won't be saying i'm 15 and half and one month it doesn't make sense😭 It's like a year is six months for me and not twelve months and i don't have this problem for others like when my friend is born in may i see her as 15 not 16 but i'm born at june and feel 16 or 17 because i know how fast time passes (especially if the year is 6 months for me) I also have fear ages like when i was 14 my fear age was 15 now i'm 15 and my fear age is 17 (it was 16 before but now my brain started to focus on 17 instead for some reason💔) Don't know if its a ocd symptom theme or what but it's mostly all i can think about👎 I'm kinda scared to post it as i find it kinda stupid but i really bothers me

777Q

Date posted: 23h

Personally many years ago when I was a teenager I would round up or round down my age using a 6 month window guideline for example if I was 15 and 5 months I would say I was 15 if I was 15 and 7 months I would say almost 16 . I found in most situations this worked out ok .

Clara_and_ellie

Date posted: 23h

I don't really like it as i still know i'm fifteen and 5 months is alot for me☹️ for example i don't see someone who is fourteen and half as if they are 15 i'll rather just enjoy being 15 instead:(:(

Clara_and_ellie

Date posted: 23h

And I don't really using the term "almost an age" until it's like a month away from my birthday,because when i look at my old photos when i'm 13 and 7 months i see myself as a 13 year old not a 14 year old☹️ That would make a year 5 months shorter for me😔

KathyF

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 23h

Sorry you're feeling this way. Have you talked with your therapist about it?

Clara_and_ellie

Date posted: 23h

I don't go to therapy i'm very shy and I have a big difficulty talking about my feelings☹️ I feel like a therapist would judge me or trigger me further. Thank you for responding❤️ !!

KathyF

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 22h

@Clara_and_ellie That is a valid concern. For me, therapy has worked great! I have told my therapist some very personal things and have not experienced any judgment.

Clara_and_ellie

Date posted: 22h

@KathyF Thank you❤️,i'm stuck on chatgtp which i know isn't the best option

KathyF

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 21h

@Clara_and_ellie A therapist will give you more personalized help. I hope you will consider it. I believe it has the potential to help!

Clara_and_ellie

Date posted: 21h

@KathyF I would love to go to therapy but i would prefer to be "forced" to do so,like you a teacher sending me to the school therapist,It would made me feel less vulnerable. Thank you for your help it really helps me when someone puts time on me and my posts ❤️ I hope you have an amazing day/evening/night

JessieJoy

Date posted: 17h

Hey.I have OCD and have seen many therapists over the years and I am also a therapist and have seen many people as clients. 1 yeah def sounds like OCD with all the focus on the numbers and the specificity/ accuracy of the numbers and what they mean etc . 2 therapy is so helpful and you can totally do it no matter how shy. I've seen everything as a therapist and it's totally ok. Any decent therapist will be non judgemental and be able to help. You owe it to yourself to get some more help and support. Oh and also I talk to chat gpt myself at times but it is just not a therapist and gets it wrong so often bc it's not good at nuance and really getting it fully

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