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I have it too but recently realized the relationship between feeling guilty as absolution and feeling like you’ve served your time and completed something as a sick victory- and how addicting the cycle is. I have found myself scanning my past searching for more things to feel guilty about and always feel the need to confess or hear someone’s perspective that I’m a good person- but as relieving as that feels to hear, it doesn’t help because i seek it out again with more detail and more context. Your past doesn’t define you. Hindsight is 20/20. Every second is a new chance to define yourself. Try to spend it being kinder to yourself. Reminding myself that I’m more capable of making better choices now, and that everyone learns and grows at their own pace helps.
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And keep in mind, when you look back in hindsight, you are looking through the completed negatively skewed lense of OCD....your memories of the past are not accurate...give yourself a break
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This was very helpful, thank you...I go through periods where almost any present experience triggers a feeling of guilt from the past....
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@bogey so do I!!! And then other times I’m free of guilt and any memory associated with it. I realized that a lot of the things I’ve felt OCD type guilt over were actions I stopped before carrying-out when I was at a young age. And even at a young age i carried guilt for things that were very normal for that age/circumstance, which i can laugh at or understand better now without guilt. Only now, new items are amplified. Your past self wasn’t as developed as you are now. I like to think that maybe I’ll be more developed in the future and laugh about my guilt for these things I feel guilty about today... side note: if the guilt is for a crime, perhaps you should discuss that further with your therapist. But having reckless anxious obsessive thoughts isn’t a crime. It’s part of OCD. Having guilt over something that’s justifiable is also part of OCD. Justifying OCD guilt isn’t a product of being an evil genius, i believe it’s just another part of letting yourself know that this is OCD and you’re not a bad person— just feeding the cycle of obsessive guilt/compulsive absolution (“release the oxytocinnnn!”) When the guilt comes for something that I have previously justified as not a big deal, I’ll try and say “nothing I did was even a big deal!” adjust my posture, take a deep breath, and resist from diving down the rabbit hole.
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i know this is from a while ago but this really helped me! i year ago when i faced sexual obsessions i would look at my cats butt and see if i was aroused. I NEVER hurt her i would just look or let her and look at her butt. I feel bad like i abused her but i know i didn’t. i’m accepting uncertainty but thanks for sharing that advice 4 years ago!
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Clearly I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about this lately...
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Same and since I'm Christian it also makes me feel like I don't deserve Gods love. It really saddens me ?
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Phillipians now you do deserve his love please what your brain tells you is not true
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Same for me its terrible thats what your ocd tell you you dont actually want to hurt anyone and you dont deserve death
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Thank you so much @Linus 56
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My OCD has become so bad and I feel so alone. I have religious OCD (Christianity) and I’ve been doing okay with letting the blasphemous thoughts go in the moment, but I’m so overcome with guilt and shame I can barely function. I can feel okay and hopeful for a few minutes and then I’m reminded of the horrible thoughts and how nothing can take them back and I can’t handle the guilt. I’m becoming a burden to my family and feel so alone. I do not know what to do. Please help.
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cause immense guilt when receiving gifts? Or when someone is nice to you, the guilt just floods every vein of your existence. I feel so awful :( awful about my compulsions, about some of my thoughts, about who OCD has made me. My boyfriend just gifted me something, and I have such a heavy feeling in my chest. Worst part is: when I’m not feeling guilty I’m spiraling over that gift was enough, if it could’ve been “better.” I feel like an idiot. I don’t understand why I’m like this
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I can’t help but feel so anxious because of guilt. I feel guilty about not sharing everything about my OCD to my partner, but because I understand that confession itself is a compulsion and would not help anyone. I feel so anxious too that if all my fears come true and she finds out, then it would be so devastating for everyone especially her. Does anyone feel the same thing? How could I change my perspective on this?
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