OCD FALSE MEMORY??? help

so.. i am alcoholic. i know i need help with it, and currently am searching for treatment . i hung out with an old friend of mine , we used to flirt back in the day it was gonna be a one night stand kinda thing. well we started drinking. knowing me of course, i wanted more. well his other friend showed up , we’re all of age obvi, well sometime during the night he was on a call with someone and i said you should tell them to come over so im not the only girl, and he said “no they’re 17 that’s my sisters friends “ so i was like oh yeah.. don’t . well i blacked out that night. i don’t remember anything really.. that was friday night. it’s now monday. i got an image of me doing things with a girl in the hotel.. and then images of them recording it that felt real. and now it’s just annoying because i can’t tell if it’s my ocd flared up or if these are things that i’m pieceing together and it’s scaring me. i get an image too of the girls face i’ve seen her on social media before too . it’s just really stressful. part of me knows it has to be ocd. i was spiraling a little bit but now it’s full force , once i would get over one thing another would pop up. now this just feels very urgent … #falsememory #pocd #ocd #blackoutdrunk

Hello777

Date posted: 7d

Can you ask your “old friend” if those girls ever came over and keep the response that he says? I would be really careful to not put yourself in those vulnerable situations anymore. Can you ask the other friend if the girls ever came over, and keep that response too? Just please don’t put yourself in situations like that anymore!

FuqOcd

Date posted: Yesterday

@Hello777 i just saw this! whoops. well it’s been almost 2 weeks . i know i asked him like what all happened he said i was mostly sleepy. i’m scared to ask again because that’s probably just reassurance . he also has hardly talked to me since that night so i don’t wanna bother him..

Hello777

Date posted: Yesterday

@FuqOcd Can you meet with the girl that you know on social media and apologize about the situation? Meet with her in person somehow? Tell her you are sorry about the situation and drinking there? Maybe you can talk in person and ask her about it?

FuqOcd

Date posted: Yesterday

@Hello777 what? that’s the thing. idk her. i don’t even know if she was there . i just get a random image of a girls face . that’s all . idk this girl at all it’s just an image of her face .

Hello777

Date posted: Yesterday

@FuqOcd Oh okay! I was just thinking if you knew her, you could ask to meet with her to clear things up in person if you were really concerned. That way you wouldn’t be troubled by it if it was nothing

FuqOcd

Date posted: Yesterday

@Hello777 i don’t know her at all not even her name. my therapist said asking anyways would just be reassurance ..

Hello777

Date posted: Yesterday

@FuqOcd Ah okay! I understand! I wasn’t sure if it was something that you were worried about or if it’s just an OCD thing. Sorry if I confused you! I know things can be scary when alcohol is involved if you don’t remember something. But if you think it’s just an OCD-thing, then definitely forget about it!!

FuqOcd

Date posted: Yesterday

it has to be an ocd thing… this has happened before ugh :( i’ll be okay!

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