HARM OCD OR IM JUST A TERRIBLE PERSON?

Hello I’ve been dealing with what I believe to be harm ocd since 2023 and I was on meds and they helped a little but haven’t been on them in months and just about 2 weeks ago my thoughts of hurting someone has come back, especially my girlfriend and that really scares me, because the thoughts make it seem like I have to do it or I want to do it and then I get freaked out but also at the same time I don’t want anything bad to happen to anyone I don’t even like fighting I don’t like anything like that. my thoughts are vivid in my head, a plan, or a thought, and I notice whenever I think about how grateful or lucky I am to have her or remember fond things it kinda pops up with the thoughts, and it’s been driving me crazy recently, and I’m at the point where I don’t know if it’s OCD anymore, but I know that all I want in life is to be with her and live on our own and be happy and do so many things, I’ve debated calling my local mental help area, but idk what’s going on

WorriedMamasita

Date posted: 2d

People who are actually bad are not worried about it. They get pleasure out of having the thoughts..thats how you know its OCD...you dont want the thoughts.. they are called intrusive for a reason, they are unwanted and opposite of what you are. There's a difference between and fantasy and a ocd scenario, one scares you the other you enjoy...I have harm ocd as well.. im doing really well with therapy and ERP and I take zoloft...I can promise you your thoughts are OCD. When they come just say..yeah cool whatever and just keep doing what your doing.. this too shall pass dude! Im here if you need to talk xo

WorriedMamasita

Date posted: 2d

T.028._

Date posted: 2d

It's ocd, I'm also fight with harm ocd maybe you can check my post, ur not ur thought, it's hard but everything will be fine, I also can't think about beuatifull things because every time I think about beuatifull things intrusive thoughts like hijacking that, and full of doubt, it's common.

Astec

Date posted: 2d

@T.028._ Really? I just don’t understand it

T.028._

Date posted: 2d

@Astec Unfortunately we will never understand this, I also experienced the same phase as you when I imagined something beautiful but suddenly intrusive thoughts came to hijack the beautiful thoughts and make them bad, and I also don't know if it just my ocd or I'm just terrible person, I can understand that, but just don't feel alone okay?

Astec

Date posted: 2d

@T.028._ I just don’t understand if it’s ocd or not like how do I know

T.028._

Date posted: 2d

@Astec Ahh yeah you mean are you ocd or are you just a bad person? Right?, well, would you believe me if I told you that's just OCD? Not really, right? Maybe you'll ask urself "but what if I'm really a bad person" right?, your questions and my questions will never get an answer, The tips is try to separate all that instrusive thought from yourself

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