- Date posted
- 6d
It's getting worse. 21+ only
Adults only Adults only I don't think it ever really gets better. Same with OCD thoughts and anxiety in some ways. I just find ways to avoid it. But in this case it's porn. I know what I'm watching is disturbing to to me and against my morals. But I watch it anyway. I know why this happens because it's part of compulsive behavior. But when this happens, I get so much shame that I'm trying not to let build up. I feel like this is getting worse than my OCD by itself. OCD is still there but my biggest triggers are almost always related to sexuality, sex, and porn. I watched plenty of things that I find so much shame and guilt for including videos of celebrities, famous people, ai videos and pictures, and risky acts being done like sexual acts in public. I don't know if this is ever going to be solved. All I can ever do about this is a avoid it and hope urges don't come back. Or if I get caught off guard.