Quick question

I was wondering as ive done research into this and i feel awful I need to know if im not the only one to have this i feel awful about it. So basically ive been with my girlfriend for a year now I love her so much she's the love of my life but when I was 13 some girl said she liked me and I was friend with her and I didnt know what to do so I went out with her for 3 week and that was it I was fine and thats the end of it. I love my current girlfriend and want to marry eventually anyways im now friend with that girl from when I was thirteen with my girlfriend and im also best mates with her boyfriend now but basically I wanted ask I had a feeling of jealousy run through my body at one point like a month ago and I keep questioning why I felt that because 1 I dont want that and it really scared me I love my girlfriend now I dont want anyone else she my world I really really love her and thats all I want she's the best things thats happend to me and when I calm down from my spilling of ocd it chucks that jealousy card at me and sets me off again its really scary and I only want my girlfriend now nobody else i wish I never went out with anyone else i only wish I went out with my girlfriend now she's the best thing in the world

Someome_se

Date posted: 23h

I understand how you feel very well because i have ROCD too My ROCD made me thought i cheated on my partner way before to the point that i just couldnt do it anymore OCD is gonna try to make you feel anything Youre gonna have bodily sensations that OCD will try to turn into something else and blame you for them But dont worry. I know how real it feels but if it upsets you then it doesn't say anything about you basically. Try not to engage with the thought that much Ill send you the cycle that i use to beat the intrusive thoughts which helps me

£-£-£-£-£

Date posted: 23h

Thank you so much so im correct in saying the sensation of jealousy isnt me and im not a bad like boyfriend I hate it so much and dont wanna affend anyone I love ny girlfriend so much

Someome_se

Date posted: 22h

@£-£-£-£-£ Exactly,its not you and ocd will come from your fears and gonna try to convince you otherwise but try not to engage with the thoughts next time as much as possible Just know that whatever feels bad says nothing about you. Because you can come to that conclusion just by thinking simple logics, like "bad people dont feel bad" "just because i had a thought of having pink hair wont make me have a pink hair" if it makes sense. Like yes the thoughts are in your head but everyone gets intrusive thoughts, even neurotypical people but us people with OCD cant let them go because of how our brain works. I know its still gonna disturb you but as you stop engaging with it (you can keep yourself busy throughout the day so u dont have time to sit and think through) its gonna have less effect on you 🙏

£-£-£-£-£

Date posted: 22h

@Someome_se Thank you so much honestly some of the best advice ive heard for a long time

Someome_se

Date posted: 22h

@£-£-£-£-£ You're welcome im so glad i could help hope you feel better!!

anon.aspirant

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 20h

@Someome_se This is a very helpful cycle, thanks for sharing!

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