Anyone else with HOCD scared it’s internalised homophobia

What was the difference like how did yo know the difference

@cloudqueen Because internalized homophobia was nothing like an obsession. It was quiet and only piped up every now and again when I was in the closet. It wasn’t my thoughts every waking moment

@KBright Because I remember two thoughts that were sorta homophobic but I’m fine with gay people

@KBright But i think these thoughts are apart of my HOCD because I don’t have an issue with gay people

@KBright Did u always know you were gay

@cloudqueen No, but yes. I knew but I didn’t. Like, I knew I like girls but I didn’t figured out that I was like attracted to them in that way until I had grown up. But honestly you likely have HOCD and internalized homophobia. Most people have some internalized homophobia, even straight people. It’s not a sign that you’re gay. I know how obsessions feel and I know what being in the closet is like and they’re not similar at all

@KBright How old are you if u don’t mind me asking

@cloudqueen 22

@KBright I’m just scared because I’ve always had like a underlying fear of being lesbian but this year before I realised I ocd I was just always questioning it but it made me anxious

@cloudqueen Hey there. I have HOCD and have gotten successful treatment. I caution against trying to figure it out for sure. What helped me a lot was to accept that I may never know, but choosing to live the life I want to live. When I have bad days, I have to remind myself of that. As soon as you think you have proven that you are straight, OCD will beat thah down. I can relate to all your comments on this thread. You aren’t alone. You can get better by getting therapy from a OCD specialist. I did teletherapy because there wasn’t anyone close.

@DCM Thank you I’ve just been really confused lately because I don’t get panicky feelings much about being lesbian or bisexual and I don’t like that

@There’s hope Hey, I was wondering whether you could help me please

@hocdgirl The truth is, no matter what I tell you about my own experience, your OCD will still find a way to convince you. Here’s what helps me: Remember that you have OCD. And do you best to relate any thoughts you have directly too that. Every time you wonder if you’re in the closet, it’s your OCD talking, not your real self.

No I like gay people I think it’s ocd

I have HOCD so I feel like I’m in denial a lot but I don’t have an issue with gay people

Hi I am starting therapy In feb with an ocd specialist and I’m on 100mg of Zoloft currently I’m just now scared because when o was younger there was this girl older at my dance school and o really wanted her to be my older sister like I really looked up to her and wanted to be her little sister and there was another girl which this gives me anxiety I really wanted her to be my friend at the time I didn’t have a good close freindship group I would even wish for her to be my friend and I was Lowkey obsessed I have quite an obsessive personality and I wanted to look like her too I think I had one thought of kissing her or something but I didn’t want to o don’t think I can’t really remember but I wanted to be her freind and now I’m concerned because these two celeb guys I had crushes on sorta looked like them but not really ans now I’m scared that these two girls were crushes and that these male Celebs were just me thinking of the girls I don’t know but I’m just scared that these girls were crushes