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i have ocd. so basically there was freezing rain in the mornin and i literally couldn’t see anything so then my driving was well not great so i took the nearest exit and stopped for a bit before going and i felt super super guilty and then i got to work and people were talking about leaving work early like 12ish bc of the weather but i thought that if i stayed till 4 then it would be better bc then they might clear the roads by then and i kept having ocd thoughts and was then was like oh okay ill leave at 12 only if everyone else leaves bc i felt bad leaving early and risking driving in the bad weather but then at 12 only a couple of people left and then i was sad bc i lowkey wanted to go home early but then i checked the weather and it was supposed to be snowing past 4 pm so then i didn’t know what to do and i wanted to go to lunch w my coworkers so i did and then afterwards it was like 2 pm and then one girl said she was gonna leave in a bit and i do like leaving early so i wanted to but i kept having ocd thoughts about risking others driving in this weather and how i had to stay still 4 but then i checked the weather and was like oh maybe it is better if i leave rn and it got a little more complicated and then i told my coworker oh im thinking of heading out (but i didn’t fully make up my mind yet so it felt like i was just saying it bc i wanted to go home) and now i can’t remember like yes ofc i would like to be home early but now it feels like i was risking it and im gonna be punished and now it feels like i have to do nothing until 4:45 which is when i would usually get home

Leslee

Date posted: 13h

I feel this sooo much!!!

Justin Maxwell

Date posted: 13h

I know the feeling of not wanting to feel like a burden when you’re scheduled late and others who aren’t scheduled late are leaving early because the roads are scary. And that alone can bring on ocd/anciety. You want to do what feels safest but also don’t want to disrupt others or feel like they think something bad. But most of that is in our own head I believe and if we tell ourselves that everyone else is probably thinking similarly I’ve noticed that helps me to calm down a lot knowing that many others are probably feeling the same way I am. And somehow that makes me calm a little, and trying not to over explain myself or why I am doing what I’m doing or need to do. Sometimes we dinner much of an explanation other than the obvious. You were worried about how the roads would be when you left and you should definitely be able to leave work if the weather is bad and others are leaving early when the weather won’t get bad till later. They could have stayed and. Are your job easier so you could all leave at a reasonable time together and no one would have to drive once things got really bad out. I’m sorry you had to feel this way because I have felt this way so many times. But I’m learning that not everything has to be on me and my shoulders. I don’t want you to feel like or think that you need to carry the weight of the world in your universe. It’s okay to take care of you and make sure you’re safe and not feel bad about that! Thank you for sharing. I relate with you!

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