Ruminating

It's tiring🥀, Especially when we convince ourselves that everything will be fine but the "what if" is too loud🫂❤️ you'll be fine twin🙌🏻

Try practicing some exposure response therapy. Stop reassuring yourself (reassurance seeking is a compulsion), stop forcing the positive thoughts. Sit with the scary thoughts. It’s very hard to do this, but the more you force yourself to imagine the worst that could happen, the less scary they become. They’re just thoughts and they don’t mean anything, (but reminding yourself of that is a compulsion in itself). A simple exercise is grabbing a journal and writing down the thought that scares you. You can write it over and over or say it over and over until it doesn’t feel so scary anymore. This is desensitizing yourself to the thought. When I get stuck on a thought I ask myself “what if this comes true?” Then I picture the outcome, which is uncomfortable, it’s supposed to be, but I force myself to imagine the worst. The more you expose yourself to your fears, the less scary they become. When you catch yourself reassuring yourself, stop. It may seem counterintuitive but it is the best way to beat OCD.

I really feel you. Best we can do is surround ourselves with comfortable familiarities and not indulge in those thoughts and feelings. Its not productive and rumination only feeds into more rumination. I sometimes feel like im a hamster stuck in a hamster wheel, just circulating through the same thoughts.

This is so relatable right now

Yeah, I've been ruminating on the same bundle of thoughts for a month now. The "hyper panic" phase is gone, but it still pervades my thoughts when I have downtime. I do get occasional moments of clarity though, those are nice. I hope that it eventually fades out to a point where it barely even registers in my brain. Often when I'm actively doing something/paying attention, the intrusive thoughts leave me until the focus stops. It shows that I am making progress, even if it's slower than I would have wanted it to be. I hope in one more month it'll become really quiet, and I'll be able to sleep properly again.

Ive been dealing with that kinda of thing for the past couple months;; been trying to pray about recently and it’s lessened a bit and I’ve gotten other stuff on my mind, but once I’m having fun, it comes back 🫩 I just try to pray on it and move on but it can be hard at times because my mind is always thinking of everything;; I pray things only get better ❤️‍🩹

Thank you all so much for your input and understanding. It makes me feel heard, understood and less alone ❤️