Frustration

Sorry I’ve been posting so much. I’m new to NOCD and this is the first time I’ve ever really been a part of something where I can relate so heavily to other people and finally express things I’ve been dealing with on my own for so long. I mentioned in my last post that I had a good day yesterday and then the anxiety came back. The anxiety was actually a bit better when I woke up earlier this morning and at first I thought maybe I just needed to sleep since I wrote the previous post late at night and hadn’t gotten much sleep the night before last, but it didn’t completely go away and the urge to seek reassurance is still here several hours later. I’m anxious of course, but also frustrated. I keep trying to tell myself that progress isn’t linear but it’s hard. Usually I am a patient person when it comes to other stuff that isn’t OCD related but I wish I could feel completely better right now. I also started taking Zoloft very recently and I know it takes a couple weeks to feel the full effects and while I’m extremely grateful to be able to take the medication I do also wish it didn’t take so long for the effects to really get going. Edit: I realized what I said about dealing with OCD on my own for so long and mentioning the Zoloft (which implies I am now getting help and not dealing with this on my own) kinda contradict each other. I finally decided to seek out help for my OCD and other mental health issues very recently, but for most of my life I had been dealing with them by myself.

Anonymous

Date posted: Yesterday

Just know you’re not alone. This journey is freaking hard. People don’t get it. Keep doing the work. There will be bad days. But keep going. I’m fighting the up and down reassurance battle too. It sucks ! Hang in there ❤️‍🩹

livg606

Date posted: Yesterday

@Anonymous Thank you! It definitely is tough. I try to keep in mind that the more I keep up the work the easier it gets. I’m sorry you’re also going through this. Hang in there as well!❤️‍🩹

Anonymous

Date posted: 23h

@livg606 Thank you so much. I needed that today more than you know. 💗

Red roses

Date posted: Yesterday

No need to apologize! It is definitely tough, it feels like a constant roller coaster. I recently restarted my antidepressants and I feel the same way, we just have to hang in there and live day to day.

livg606

Date posted: Yesterday

@Red roses A roller coaster is a good way to put it. I’m sorry you’re also going through this but I’m glad I’m not alone. Hang in there! :^)

nae nae

Date posted: Yesterday

I feel this. And I understand the frustration (for lack of a better word) with the time it takes for the medication to kick in. I'm taking Zoloft, too, and that first month felt like YEARS 😭 I started on 25mg, and it wasn't until a week after I bumped it to 50mg that I started to feel a clear difference. It's different for everyone, though! In the meantime, I'd just look into little habits you can build into your every day that will help your mental health overall! Most importantly, be gentle with yourself :)

livg606

Date posted: Yesterday

@nae nae Exactly! For some reason I always feel like March specifically takes like 500 years to get through lmao but I’m looking forward to the end of it so the effects of the Zoloft will have settled in by then. Your suggestion about the habits is definitely a good idea and I’ll look into it! Thank you so much! :^)

Tea and Honey

Date posted: Yesterday

I hear you. You will keep making progress. Are you doing ERP?

livg606

Date posted: Yesterday

@Tea and Honey I am! But I just very recently started it so it’s all still pretty new to me

Tea and Honey

Date posted: 16h

@livg606 It takes time. It's a journey. I've been getting better little by little for years. Don't rush the journey:). You are exactly where you are supposed to be right now! It will take as long as it takes. :):) hugs

livg606

Date posted: 15h

@Tea and Honey Thank you so much! :^)

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