I really hesitated to post this.

Hello! I’m new here and wanted to take a moment to introduce myself. My name is Allison, I’m a wife and a mother. I have to admit I’m wrestling right now with a bit of imposter syndrome. I knew immediately when I found NOCD that I had found (probably) the answer to many of the struggles I’ve experienced over the last 20 years. However, while I’m waiting in the space between the intake call and my first appointment, I find myself now doubting all the experiences, thoughts, and feelings that led me here in the first place. Without an official diagnosis yet my mind is swirling with “what ifs” and my anxiety has been higher than usual. I think I’m 50% scared of what having OCD would mean for me and 50% scared I’ve imagined/made up everything I’ve experienced and there’s no help for me. Reading through the posts on here has really helped a lot and I appreciate how kind and candid everyone is. All that to say I’m at the very beginning of my journey and I’m looking forward to connecting with and learning from those who have gone before me.

al01

Date posted: 20h

Welcome, Allison! I’m a wife & mommy to two littles and I also have OCD! I’m glad you’re here. ❤️‍🩹 The only regret I have looking back to that chapter of my NOCD journey that you’re in now, is not starting therapy sooner. I was TERRIFIED. You’ll find through treatment that what you’re experiencing is one of the many classic traps OCD likes to throw out for us. The “What if it’s not OCD? What if it’s something else and I’m beyond help? What if it’s something worse or maybe I just crazy?” traps. And to all of that I say, it is definitely OCD and you definitely are not crazy, although sometimes it can feel that way. I hope that this journey is healing for you and that you learn a lot. I know I have, and getting treatment was the best decision I ever made. My NOCD therapist changed my life! We’re all here for you, cheering you on! ❤️❤️❤️

AllisonRojas

Date posted: 19h

@al01 Thank you so much for the kind words 🩷

al01

Date posted: 19h

@AllisonRojas Anytime!! ❤️

DadPerry

Date posted: 19h

Allison - whether you have OCD or not, you are amongst friends here who can share their experiences and offer advice. If you've landed at NOCD and a lot of other people's stories are sounding similar to your experiences, then you're probably (not a diagnosis) but probably in the right place. I was just diagnosed 6 months ago and NOCD has been a huge help. I was not aware of all the different subtypes of OCD that exist. Anyway, there's a lot of great information here about OCD and don't be shy to post questions. You're bound to get a good amount of support and feedback. (but if you don't get any responses, do not take it personally, just post again but phrase it a little different.) Cheers.

AllisonRojas

Date posted: 19h

@DadPerry Thank you for the encouragement! I’m definitely hopeful I’ll find some answers here.

VickiSilverBird

Date posted: 18h

Congratulations on starting the journey! Please know that you ate not alone in questioning"Is this really OCD?" I just discussed this very thing with my terrific therapist the other day. I think you'll find here in the community that many of us have flips and flops back and forth about whether to believe we have OCD or not. The therapists at NOCD are all very well trained and knowledgeable about OCD and will be able to provide help and clarity. And this community is a safe space to share your questions and concerns! Welcome, and wishing you well.

Ike72

Date posted: 19h

Welcome! I'm very new to this as well and still have a lot of thoughts of being an impostor and the idea that I'm 'self-diagnosing' even though my working with / learning about OCD was recommended by a therapist. Being on NOCD has helped me a great deal so far, especially with relating to others who have similar themes and compulsions. There is also a lot of great advice on here for dealing with anxiety that I would find helpful whether or not I was dealing with intrusive thoughts. Hope you're able to get some good insight and relief and wish you the best

AllisonRojas

Date posted: 19h

@Ike72 I appreciate you sharing your experience. That’s a good perspective to have. Thank you and best of luck on your journey!

AllisonRojas

Date posted: 18h

Thank you for taking the time to offer some encouragement. I wish you all the best!

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