- Date posted
- Yesterday
New Meds.
Hi hi everyone. I wanted to know everyone's experiences with Luvox. This is my second week. And I will tell you that the first week it was rough. I had almost every symptom. And it did intensify my pure o. But today has made officially two weeks. And that's not to say that i'm not going through it. But I have decided to stick with this medication and give it my all. I do believe that if I do, it's going to improve and hopefully slow down my thoughts. And today I have to say, did I do feel better. Even though it's small and I have been doing compulsions, it just feels slightly different. Also, for the first time in my life, i'm able to see and speak with an actual OCD dedicated therapist. We have our first session on friday. And I feel like the medication is going to help, because maybe I can slow down long enough for therapy to actually work. Just a bit about my ocd. Just in case this post hits home, and maybe you just need to feel like you connect with someone. I have pure O OCD. It comes in the form of very intense thoughts about people i love and know dying. It will usually start with a thought about someone, then, it kind of turns into if i'm thinking about them. Then starts.... do you want something bad to happen to them? And in about two minutes, i've convinced myself that I do. And I have to, in some way, make it right. My compulsions are a mix of pacing, tapping and above all very detailed prayers. Of course there's more to it than that.... it's a lot of counting, fear. Ect. Avoiding people, because i'm afraid it will bring on a thought..... The last few years have been really rough. I'm really looking forward to this new therapy starting soon. A lot of the time I feel like i'm just physically here. Going to work, and barely maintaining that. The actual life being lived. That really did stop a long time ago. I need to find myself again. I need to believe that that's possible. This crazy ocd ritual foundation that i've built myself, that i've like foolishly convinced myself works. It's completely crumbling. I'm sorry for getting off track.... it has been a rough few years. And in an even rougher two weeks. If you made it this far, thank you for reading. Also, if you've made it thus far and have any advice on sticking it out with luvox. Please feel free to share. Thank you -B