I wonder if I was ever meant to live at all.

POCD. I wish I had HOCD. I wish I didn't have OCD at all. I've become a disgusting human being.

@Vimli HOCD is as horrible as any other OCD. I just wish none of us on this app had it. We were just enjoying our life normally when suddenly this thing jusslt hits you like a train. HOCD is so bad for me right now, even when I dont want to have thoughts about it I still get it and I feel sad and fatigued all the time

@sanziday People would sympathize with your HOCD. They wouldnt sympathize with my POCD. That's why POCD is the worst. Because no one would forgive someone who creepily stares at a child even if theyre doing it as a compulsion and theyre not actually a pedo.

@cloudqueen Your POCD probably hasnt made you do the shit its made me do - like masturbating as a compulsion and literally orgasming because of a bodily stress response. My OCD has doomed me - you people still have hope, so please, seek help as soon as yall can.

@cloudqueen People would feel bad about you masturbating because of HOCD. People would label me a pedophile for masturbating because of POCD. Period. So be thankful you at least have that.

@cloudqueen Well people that aren't OCD sufferers won't get that.

@Vimli I understand people who don’t have it don’t get it and it’s frustrating but you just have to try to remember that you don’t want that and ocd prays on what you don’t want to happen so even if people don’t believe you it is the monster or POCD

@Vimli I've also kind of shown signs signs POCD and it sometimes does freak me out a little bit but not as extreme as you, hope the future get better for you

@sanziday gee thanks

@Vimli Your welcome ?

@Vimli Okey but hocd and pocd are both bad and trust me you don’t wanna hocd. It’s nightmare what does not end easily and it’s make you feel like whole new person so please respect us too.

@Asnku I am respecting you. I'm just saying people won't think you're a danger to society because you have HOCD. That's facts. If it upsets you feel free to swap your theme and all your regrets with mine, then we'll see how much happier you'll be.

@Asnku Yep, HOCD is sometimes so bad makes me cry and frustate on why even live

It will get better for yall, not for me though. Yall take care of yourselves. Whatever tragedy is in store for me it's whatever. Nobody can do shit about it.

@Vimli Even though you feel that way just try having a little bit of hope even though it doesnt help

When I say that I've had it worse than everyone here I'm not trying to flaunt my suffering cred and compete. I just get upset and jealous because you people are SO FAR FROM HOPELESS and I'm trying to make yall realize that.

@Vimli I do understand your pain whenever imagine myself in your shoes or what it must be like being you but some members are a bit sensitive about this topic so please don't mind.

@sanziday I**