getting back on my feet

i'm 22 and my friends are all doing things career wise so is my boyfriend and i'm SO proud of them and no i don't feel like im "behind" because there's no such thing everyone moves at their own pace, but i don't have a job or school at the moment nor do i know what i want to do yet I had a pretty hard year where i absolutely needed to take a break and dropped out of college and it was the right call at the time because i got diagnosed with ocd and did outpatient during that time with therapy, my mental health was too dark to focus on anything bigger than my spirals now with lots of sessions and meds, im getting back on my feet, but when i meet up to have fun with my friends or boyfriend, i'm feeling...kinda directionless, it's just not balanced because i don't have career goals, but Im proud to have worked on myself to get here (yay!) I kinda want to shift focus (now that I can) to working towards a career i just have no idea what to major in (i'll of course figure it out) Im fortunate to have opportunity for school, idk i feel like distancing my self a bit to figure that out, without feeling guilty somehow and without overwhelming myself maybe someone can relate🫶

macarena3412

Date posted: Yesterday

I relate a lot to what u said, though I do feel behind also realized a long before college that everyone moves at their own pace, I have a sort of direction I want to take my career but idk I feel like I’m gonna mess it up bc so I avoid doing things for college like applying for scholarships, talking to a counselor about what classes I want to take for the degrees I want, etc And ofc the what if I take too long and I can’t find a job in the career I had wanted forever? What if I’m unreachable at computer programs? What if my art skills never improve and I’m forced to work a job I hate? What if I’m still bad at school even when I’m on all the meds I need to do school?

willajayne

Date posted: 21h

I relate to this sooo much. I’m 23. My ocd spirals (especially during later college) got so loud it was hard to think about anything other than getting through the day, much less plan for the future. I got diagnosed after college and am doing a lot better (living in my dream city with friends), but I do feel a bit stagnant in my lack of career, just working hospitality jobs and putting off working towards my dream of being a writer bc my ocd tells me I have brain damage and won’t be able to write well enough. I know I’m doing better than I think and I’m proud of myself, but it’s hard to truly believe that rather just telling myself.

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