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It’s a tough, uphill battle no doubt, but there’s tons of support in life and on here. OCD works in unfair, evil ways. Even simulating the “what if” that scares us, but it doesn’t change the fact that something is OCD. I don’t mean to reassure here, but I’m saying there’s tons of reasons to recognize OCD for the enemy it is, keep up the fight to beat it, and many, many reasons to continue living!
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It’s not working on me either but that doesn’t mean I don’t have ocd and should die
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you don't have POCD so yeah
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@Vimli You just said it yourself - you have POCD So you DO have ocd!!
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@uwotm8 Yeah but at what cost. People will still think I'm a pedophile and knowing I have it doesnt make me hate myself less. Also I don't 100% know if I have POCD or not. What if my therapist made a mistake, what if I'm some rare POCD pedo hybrid? It's not impossible to me. So I just sit here miserable and crying again for the 40 billionth time
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@Vimli What if What if What if It’s ocd. I promise you your therapist hasn’t made a mistake. I don’t have this theme so I can see it clearly is ocd taking the drivers seat and it’s horrible to see. You’re not a bad person. Bad people don’t care if they’re bad but you clearly are distressed. That’s part of ocd
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@uwotm8 would you say that to me knowing every single disgusting and creepy thing OCD has made me do?
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@Vimli I’m sorry to hear that you feel this way. Please understand that you can’t have POCD and be a pedophile at the same time.
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@Catlady But what if I can? Where's the evidence saying you can't
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@Vimli OCD only uses things against you. Straight people with OCD worry that they’re gay but never that they’re straight and vice versa. It just can’t happen.
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@Vimli What do you think you’ve done that’s creepy?
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@Vimli Everyone with OCD feels that.maybe their therapists are making a mistake. You most likely have OCD. Sorry if this is reassurance. You may just have to switch up ur exercises and focus even harder on not seeking reassurance and ERP
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@advocate109 I feel that way all the time it’s just my theme is different Same beast different manifestation
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@uwotm8 I've compulsively eye-balled and stared at minors to try and find out if I'm really attracted. Sometimes I look at their crotch areas which makes me feel so horrible that it makes me want to die. I've masturbated trying to think about horrible sexual acts to see if I can get aroused and I've had an orgasm twice. I had and sometimes still have this compulsion where I picture sexually suggestive stuff with minors to see if I get aroused or if I like it (and before it was sexually suggestive it was full on the grosest fucking thoughts imaginable). Everything I've done spells disgusting creep for me. It makes me feel so horrible. Like there is no way in hell any normal person will sympathize with me if they knew about these things. So I'm just at my lowest and I know for a fact that I'll never be able to recover from this.
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@Vimli That’s literally all ocd - you feel so terrible about it it’s ruining your life, real criminals don’t feel bad about it they enjoy it
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@uwotm8 It's so fucked up how powerful OCD and fear is........Like the friends I have that know about all of this cannot believe I'm going through it. Do you think I'll be understood? Do you think I'll be allowed to be a human being just like everyone else despite all of that.
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@Vimli Absolutely. I promise you everything you just described is compulsions!! You feel so bad about your thoughts it’s taken over, but the important part to remember is, you’re NOT your thoughts and if you truly were a bad person you’d just be going out acting badly and not giving a single fuck - you clearly have a conscience and your ocd is attacking your values It truly is powerful. It’s convinced me that I’m riddled with STDs despite not ever being diagnosed and I also have tangliblw proof in the form of negative results. And I STILL believe ocd
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@Vimli Of course btw!! Talk to your therapist and don’t give up on Erp. I get disheartened too but I have no choice. Lots of people have the same issue as you do you’re not alone
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@uwotm8 I hope you get better. I genuinely mean it. You're one of the only people here that hasnt accused me of being a pedophile after I've shared all of that
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@Vimli Don’t ever do anything stupid and hurt yourself please
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@uwotm8 I won't. I promise.
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@Vimli Good!! Thankyou x Also remember your therapist knows better than people online
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@uwotm8 They said the same thing you did about my compulsions, so...
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@Vimli Who did, the therapist?
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@uwotm8 Yes
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@Vimli Then as hard as it is, you need to do your best to believe your therapist over your ocd xx
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Also look into medication
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This post is old. I am fine and I'm not going to do anything to myself. I have stated this numerous times but no one listens and everyone reports me instead.
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Dear Vimli @Vimli, please see the email sent from NOCD regarding any mention of self harm. Please contact your support persons and dial 911 if you feel your safety is at risk. NOCD cares about your safety.
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I'm not getting any e-mail and my life isn't in danger. I'm doing better. Please remove the flags off my posts.
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I find while doing exposures, rarely does my anxiety lessen. It usually amps up and stays that way for the remainder of the day. I could be having a fairly decent day, but dutifully do my exposures and then the rest of my day is anxiety filled. I guess that’s just how it is now? Also, I’m wondering if my therapist even believes I have OCD. I totally understand my therapist cannot provide reassurance. But it’s to the point it seems my therapist acts like I actually did the thing I fear. I feel so isolated.
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What would I do for ERP if my OCD says because I didn’t do something correctly or remember something I will have panic attacks that don’t end?
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Ero doesn't work. I don't understand why people always say use erp use erp. It doesn't work, ever. Sitting with anxiety doesn't work, nothing works. There is no dealing with ocd the only way to deal with it is rumination and getting reassurance. Erp doesn't work because it needs to work immediately. I dint have time to sit with anxiety and living with the thought I need the thoughts gone now. I'm a horrible person, I deserve nothing, I don't deserve friends, I'm awful horrible, I'm terrible. My ocd is right and I need to accept it. It never gets better. I will never recover
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