Relationship ocd

Lately I’ve really been struggling with my thoughts in my relationship. The guy I’m with is seriously an amazing guy, he’s patient with me and he’s even taking the time to understand my OCD and how it works. Sometimes I feel like I’m really sensitive to his jokes, even though I know logically that he loves me and he’s not trying to hurt me. I feel like I will look for a lot of reassurance and little things in my mood can change quickly by a movement of a brow. I’m just wondering if other people will go through a phases like this because I noticed that sometimes it’ll fade away and things will be great and then all it takes is one small thing to get me to spiral. The hardest part is that I know of this about myself, my mother and my sister both struggle with OCD so we’ve definitely taken the route to understand it. But it still makes it hard because sometimes I don’t know if it’s me or my OCD, which makes me feel like I have identity crisis. Just wondering if other struggled with this as well, I’ve heard that it can be a common thing and OCD. Also, I will say that sometimes I can be sensitive to feedback, even though I know that people are meaning the best. I feel like I’m very easily influenced by other people’s opinions which also makes my OCD a struggle as well.

lostmyswag

Date posted: 12h

yes this happens to me too, and i'm sorry you're dealing with it because it has genuinely destroyed the life i know and love. identity crisis feels real, so i get it. i've definitely grown out of reading into those little things over text and what not, but i still face existential ROCD worries and concerns that feel impossible to fix, like me needing to break up with him so i can heal on my own. but i'm the same way where my mood is just so sensitive and it's like i blame him for when my mood is low and use it as proof that he's wrong for me. my sister has like hair picking tendencies and long bathroom visits, but no forms of ocd with the severity i have it. i think it's defintly in my family but ive never seen it impact someone the way it's doing me, which makes me feel so alone.

sierra_v

Date posted: 8h

@lostmyswag Holy crap everything you just said is everything that I struggle with. It’s like trying to find a justification to run or to do things on my own like you had said. I tend to want to blame him for a lot of the ways that I feel as well and I know a lot of it is me projecting knowing that it’s insecurities I have in my own. I really hope that you’re also finding ways to help yourself through this, it’s hard when others don’t fully understand what’s going on in your mind. It’s like fighting a second person. My sister also has similar tendencies like what your sister has, my mom and sister obviously diagnosed so it does help to know that and I’m sure if you feel the same about your family there’s no doubt in my mind that they may have similar to what mine does. The hardest thing is that every family member can have different things so sometimes you don’t always feel like you can relate to them, it tends to do that. I really appreciate you sharing your experience because it really does help. I think we need more people like us so we can really understand and know that we’re not alone and know that our thoughts are normal and it doesn’t make us bad.🤍 everything you’re feeling is totally justified. One thing I always try to remind myself is just because I feel it doesn’t mean I need to act on it which sometimes does feel impossible. If you ever need to chat, you can always message me. It’s always great to have friends that have similar struggles.🤍

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