ROCD

@Tea and Honey @Tea and Honey I’ll try to ride it out and do nothing. It feels so terrible and wrong that I think that. But I should ride it out. It feels like “how can I be with him if I think this” UGH. Maybe all of this is some sort of big protection mechanism in my brain I don’t know? So many things tho I’m like if my partner did that I would be upset and that makes it feel WORSE.

@Mk3 I hear you. It's so hard. Don't try to figure it all out. When it comes to OCD, we just CAN'T figure it all out. We will have a thousand questions and a thousand caveats and a thousand "what if"s. But we can never untangle the emotional and intellectual knots. And the more we try to untangle everything, the worse it gets. OCD is best left alone. Just leave the tangled, confused ball of yarn all tangled up in your head. Then go and live by your DECISIONS, not the whims of OCD. If you decide to stay with this person, then do that. And enjoy it as much as you can. :):)

@Tea and Honey I definitely want nothing more than to be with this person! But this stuff makes me feel so guilty. But I won’t listen to it. None of it should mean I can’t be with him or don’t deserve him, I hope.

@Mk3 You are exactly right!!!! Stay parked right there--with where you just said. You are beating the OCD when you do this. Even if it doesn't "feel" right.

@Tea and Honey I meant to say "with what you just said"

@Tea and Honey Thank you so much. What I think is TRUE which makes me feel so guilty but it doesn’t mean I don’t deserve my partner. The OCD reaction is the problem. Since its true I’m like is it not ocd but that’s ridiculous lol

@Mk3 I think deep down we always catch on to what the OCD is trying to do to us. The OCD is trying to manipulate us into being miserable. But we can't let the OCD win. We are recognizing its strategies!