this might just be a common senior thing

Yes I deal with it a lot. I didn’t get bullied growing up but I moved schools and country every year so it’s WHATS caused ALOT of my anxiety. I get this aswell, scared I won’t be as good at something and everyone will judge me. What helps me is sitting down and imagining my version of a perfect life, i realise what I want and what I don’t want in this way. But mostly what I can and CANT control, from the minute you CAN control something change it. You want to go to art school do it, you have an opportunity which is a lot more than most people can say. Take advantage of that opportunity and ring it for all its worth because it’s something a lot of people would wish to have. We only have one life why not spend it doing something we want to do? If you’re always gonna say “i won’t be good at this. People will judge me. I won’t go because I’m scared” well then you will live a life that doesn’t change in any way, you’ll always stay at the same spot. For me thats scarier, yes it’s uncomfortable at the beginning when starting something new but after that uncomfortable feeling is over even if it take months or years to pass, after that is when the best things come to you. DO WHAT YOU LOVE! SPEND YOURE LIFE LIVING IT HOW YOU WANT TO LIVE IT! GET OUT YOUR COMFORT ZONE! You got this and we are here to support you (+ it’s the best being the new kid everyone wants to be your friend take it from someone that spent her whole life being the “new kid”, it’s like you have an upper hand, you’re new, you’re interesting, you’re something different that people aren’t used to)

You say you’ll be the new kid but if you’re going to be a freshman in college doesn’t that mean everyone is the new kid too? There could be others in the same boat as you sharing the same feelings. College is so much different from highschool. Speaking from my own experience there were a lot more people and every class has different students so there’s more opportunities to branch out and find your people as the first comment mentioned. Think of this as a fun new beginning for you. I know change can be anxiety inducing but college can end up being so much fun especially if you join clubs that are of your interests.

When you get to college, everyone is the new kid and everyone is so desperate for friends and anxious to fit in. I struggled to make friends for a lot of my adolescence (for a lot of the same reasons you mentioned) and my freshman year of college was one of the easiest times for me socially. Bullying doesn’t happen as frequently. People will go out of their way to get to know you, just try to reciprocate. You’ll find your group as long as you keep your heart open.

go for it you will find your people