Do you guys ever just... cringe at yourself ?

I know mental illness is... mental illness; and it isn't just "ouuu brains a bit different, but it's so whatever and I act mysterious . Or haha I'm crazy but it's just quirky." I know it messes the brain, legitimately, and impacts the way one acts- But sometimes, I say things or act in a way where at the moment it's just goes and it's how I feel through the emotions that are ongoing, but sometimes I act a certain way due to my disorder/possible other things and later or afterwards I'm like: "Aueghh I need to shut up- why was I acting that way ?! 🥲" it's like I'm so hyperaware of myself but at the same time I'm not as well and I just cringe a while after. Anyone else ?

777Q

Date posted: Yesterday

This is something I try to incorporate often maybe 80 to 90 % of the time to in life events , conversations and so on , I try to pause briefly maybe 10 seconds before responding or reacting to whatever it is that I am going to say or do . That way things come out a little more measured and balanced.

VVbee

Date posted: 18h

This is what I do most times whenever I'm not home or with family but each time it just gets me more skeptical on what to say or may come out as ":,) but it does help overall with seeming more measured. Otherwise I just say out of impulse and then get embarrassed later on.

GR-W

Date posted: Yesterday

I relate to this so much and it’s horrible. For me it’s as though I have a little commentator in my brain that sits to the side and criticises everything I’m doing and constantly cringing. It makes it very hard to feel as though I’m not acting and can be exhausting to deal with. The hyperawareness can also be infuriating. I don’t know how it is with your brain, but alongside the ‘stop being cringe’ analysis, my mind constantly analyses everything I do, trying to work out the cause and affect of my personality/mental illness if you will lol. It’s not fun. But at the same time I’m is aware that I can’t know that much cos otherwise I’d be able to deal with things better and so that’s where the criticising/cringing element come back again ig. Sorry this is very rambly. But, in short, I believe I understand at least some of what you are struggling with and I really hope you’ll be able to become less critical of yourself :)

VVbee

Date posted: 18h

No worries for the ramble ! I enjoy listening. :^) But I agree overall, I am pretty hyperfocused with my personality and how my actions may correlate to mental illness or if I'm just odd. It is quite draining and I'm incredibly aware but at the same time my mouth and actions just doesn't listen ahah. I hope we both can become less critical of ourselves and I'm glad this isn't just me. <33

TroubledEvil

Date posted: Yesterday

I always cringe at myself.

VVbee

Date posted: 17h

You're not alone 🫂 (and your outfit looks so cute ! If that's you on your pfp)

jessica✨

Date posted: Yesterday

yes, constantly. and it replays in my head for what feels like an eternity and with each replay, i/what i did/what i said gets more distorted and unbearable

VVbee

Date posted: 17h

The last part is so relatable . 😮‍💨 The first time it happens and I look back, I feel quite uncomfortable but as time passes by the memory starts fogging and I start seeing the past moment to become more dramatic or weird . You are not alone on that.

jessica✨

Date posted: 17h

@VVbee right, it’s so brutal. i describe it as becoming this monster, like a jekyll and hyde transition each time it replays

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