I hate these stereotypes/alienation

"(Said person) was a lonely guy, had zero friends, is quite shut out of the world, awkward, and turns out to be a murderer or disturbing individual." I hear an example of that during History class and it spiked my OCD up. :^( I'm quiet, lies. I'm really loud, but due to my school past, real events, and mental illness, I'm really shy and quite shut down. I rarely have any friends, and overall I'm very awkward and almost feel like an alien and odd . I know that doesn't mean I'll be a murderer/weirdo in the future (despite Real Event OCD/OCD in general twisting it all), but along with the "quiet kid" stereotype- I'm scared that people somehow see me as that way. It doesn't help that I used to be awfully EDGY as a younger teen. I just feel like an alien, and it messes with how I see myself as a girl. I'm really into cute and all feminine stuff but with all of this, I just feel so sub-human and I compare myself to every girl I see. I've began to dissociate with these thoughts and it just sucks . I feel so insecure and don't feel alive. I've been wondering if I might be neurodivergent as well with the way my social cues are & other factors, but I don't know.. : ( Does anyone have insight/experience on these things ?

T.028._

Date posted: 8h

Yaaaa I can feel thatt, Like when I see other girls I automatically compare myself like "do I look weird" "why I feel so different" "Am I crazy" sometimes I scared with what people think when they see me and I started asking questions to judge myself, because in real life I don't have very close friends, and 98% I feel more comfortable at home 😔

VVbee

Date posted: 8h

Yes I feel that way as well ! And it sucks because people always assume I'm introverted, or I'm afraid I'm seen as full on Anti-social, when in reality I'm extremely extroverted and love the idea of talking to people..! :,) School just isn't a safe space for me anymore, and I've been told I have such awful luck with friends (which is unfortunately so true..) and it has affected my development deeply. So I'm really awkward and stuttery, and I don't know what to say unless if it's family and I'm unfiltered and nearly obnoxious . Which that sucks, I like the idea of friends but I suck at friendship itself. I feel sooo safe alone in my room while I daydream and draw, it sort of makes being alone feel more peaceful . I just don't like talking to anyone at school, and if I do, I feel off afterwards. And with the looks and comparing to other girls is just so relatable, I compare everything from hair, to clothing, to appearance and everything. <:") I've been told I look beautiful by both genders, and sometimes the full other way around. It's really just messed up my perception of myself and I feel like a crazy species rather than a normal girl, my OCD makes me overanalyze my apperance and movement everyday . And again, I've gone through both sides of the stick when it comes to compliments and insults, and yet, my OCD gets so nervous that one day someone will record or post me on the internet and people will laugh or make fun of me and call me odd or sinister ifykwim. (Sorry for the rant haha, this has been bothering me a lot ! T^T)

thisthischic...

Date posted: 7h

I was the quiet kid and still found great friends, the thing is some teenagers (the asshole ones) HATE that you don't look for validation, or present yourself to get it, so they either be afraid of you or find you "weird" to try to change your identity into something more predictable for them, so it's not something you NEED to change at all, because it's still you, and these "quiet kid" stereotypes were made to harm wonderful people, because it's not your fault to have social anxiety and it is up to you to feel safe with the idea of being socially available, not to them

tedlassoenjo...

Date posted: 6h

this is so real honestly, in high school I was fixated on hanging out with my high school English teachers because everyone else would think I was weird or dangerous. I still feel like that, but I’ve been able to make friends that aren’t just proffesors or teachers (although those relationships are very cool too)

JeffTheGiraffe

Date posted: 5h

@tedlassoenjoyer! ngl the teachers you get in high school are better friends than your friends 😭

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