Was supposed to go back to work today after 2 months on med leave (work in healthcare with contamination ocd) i broke down and i couldn’t do it. I’m trying to see if i can work up the courage to go to work tomorrow :/ i’m very sad i feel so horrible about myself and I love my job but my ocd is so bad i just feel like i can’t do it i feel so weak. does anyone relate?
I was seriously just thinking about you before I opened the app wondering if you were able to make it to work today. I commented on one of your previous posts about working in healthcare with contamination ocd. My heart goes out to you, I know how hard it is. I heard something the other day that I’ve been trying to implement into my own life… “decide and do” sounds simple, but not when you have a brain like ours lol. It’s essentially the same as “one foot in front of the other” decide you’re going to do something, and no matter what your brain tries to tell you to derail from that, just do. All day say that to yourself “decide and do” make a decision and go forward. Nothing stops you. You’ve committed. You can do this, I know you can.
@Anonymous Thank you so much for the support, i really appreciate it. I will try that again next time. I have a visit with my doctor tomorrow to start medication for my OCD. I just feel very horrible about myself.
@Taovryou I get it, but feeling horrible about yourself isn’t doing you any favors. It’s not your “fault” for lack of a better word. You’re clearly doing the best you can given the circumstances, try to give yourself some grace. Hopefully starting medication will ease some of the anxiety, it’s a process.
I relate, recently struggling with feeling weak because of a really bad OCD spike coupled with depressive episodes and burnout — I’m just exhausted and feeling bad because I can’t do it and I suddenly don’t know how to cope. I started therapy again and when we were doing intake stuff and I was explaining this feeling and she stopped me: “Yet. You don’t know how to cope yet.” It helped, so I’m trying to hold onto yet. And I’m sending you support
@Circe908 Thank you, thankfully i see my therapist tomorrow and hopefully she can give me some insight
That happened to me at my old job. I was on fmla but couldn't go back because I was such in a bad state. Thankfully through erp I was able to get back to work. I'm in a season where I've regressed with my ocd and I need to really get back to doing the work but I fear the uncomfortable. I hope you can get back to work.
@ac_3 How long did it take you? i’m so scared im going to lose my job
ugh I’m so sorry :( you’re strong, you’ll pull through, but don’t pressure on yourself either. sending love your way
@clarakay Thank you so much!
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