Intrusive urges

@Peter48 Yes I get those too! We just have to remember our thoughts aren’t actions!

@Parthxus Do you feel like you’re gonna act on it even though you don’t want to? Is that even possible? Don’t you have to want to do something to go it!?

@Stacey353 Yes, it does feel like you’re gonna act on it. It’s scary. I don’t know many answers because my OCD is new and I don’t wanna give reassurance either as that fuels the OCD in the long run.

@Parthxus No I get it I just appreciate you responding

@Stacey353 Of course, you’re not alone!

@Parthxus You’re the best! Thank you for being there for me! I always feel alone in these thoughts they are so scary

@Stacey353 Of course, I get that. I always feel so alone. Right now I’m siting with my mom (OCD targets her) and I can feel the sensations in my knees the need to lunge and it’s so so scary but I’m trying to face the fear

@Parthxus Yes!!! I get this 100%!!! Good for you for facing your fear!!! I’m so proud of you because that’s really hard!! I get tingles in my hands like they are gonna move and can see myself doing things do you get this??

@Parthxus I really am so proud of you bc facing that fear is freakin hard!!!

@Stacey353 Yes! I do. I get it all the time, and I feel like energy or tingling in my knees or hands or sometimes my hand twitch and I get the images in my head about it

@Stacey353 It is. It’s super uncomfortable but I can’t be cooped up in my room all day..

@Parthxus What do you picture happening in your head if you don’t mind me asking?

@Parthxus Do you ever feel like the urge gets to strong and you have to go be alone?

@Stacey353 Yes, I genuinely want to be alone rn but I know that’s bad for me

@Stacey353 Hurting my mom. Or attacking her and it scares me cause I love my mom and it goes after her. And when I’m not feeling anxiety , I start to feel guilty and questioning myself

@Parthxus I 100% I understand and admire you truly bc you know being alone isn’t the answer where I always feel like it is but I just need to trust myself more!

@Parthxus Do you get urges along with your thoughts and tingles?

@Stacey353 It’s very VERY hard, don’t get me wrong but I know in the long run, it should help to expose myself and retrain my brain

@Parthxus You’re doing great! Oh I they possible to rewrite your brain!?

@Stacey353 Look up videos by Nathan Peterson, he does a really good job at explaining stuff like this

@Parthxus I love his videos! I will go find one!

@Parthxus How are you doing now? Still hanging out with your mom?

@Stacey353 I was for a while, yes. Then I decided to take a break and play game for a bit. Then I had to get some medicine at the drugstore and I had tk sit close to her in the front seat of the car so that was an exposure. Now I had an exposure with my cat cuddling with me

@Parthxus Good job!

@Stacey353 Thank you :), it’s definitely hard and difficult but I’m trying to get through it

@Parthxus Well good job for sticking with it!

@Stacey353 How are you doing?

@Parthxus I’m I’ve been playing with my son all day so they s huge win for me!

@Stacey353 Nice! I’m super glad that’s been going well! I’ve had a bit of a rough start but I’m *okay* for now.

@Parthxus Yeah I’ve had some rough patches too but we are doing it

@Stacey353 Yeah, it’s hard for sure

@Parthxus Agreed 100%

@Stacey353 I hope the rest of your day goes well though! I’m dreading tonight because I’ve grown more sensitive to the night time and dark as that’s when my anxiety spikes up

@Parthxus I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers mine spikes when it gets dark out too!

@Stacey353 Thank you :), we really are alike with some of these symptoms!

@Parthxus I know it’s crazy! Did you still get intrusive urges today with your mom?

@Stacey353 I did yes, unfortunately. It was very difficult and it’ll be my first week being at home for the first time after I was at a residential place and PHP/Hotel for a about a month or two

@Parthxus Well I’m so glad you pushed through I did the same!

@Stacey353 I’m very nervous about the week since I start virtual IOP tomorrow and idk what to expect and I’m very nervous that therapy won’t work for me but this is my first time so there’s just a lot of worry rn

@Stacey353 I’ll check in with you later to see how you’re doing!

@Stacey353 Alright, see you later then!

@Parthxus Talk to you soon!

@Parthxus Do you ever have bad intrusive thoughts and urges when you’re trying to sleep??