Somebody please respond or help me

@spongeslices What do I do???? I feel like a monster

@Anonymous fist of all you’re not faking anything, your brain is just wired uniquely. it’s not your enemy and you’re not evil for having images and thoughts manifest, especially since it’s completely out of your control. the intrusive images that appear in your brain haven’t happened, and i think you need to try choosing to believing that as much as you can… try comforting yourself, telling yourself said events aren’t real, they haven’t happened and they would never happen. you could never do or witness such a thing.. (you can edit that to better suit your narrative) and this kind of thinking isn’t helping you right now (this is a new approach i’m trying so i’m not entirely sure how well it works haha) and approach it from an empathetic standpoint yk i think you might have to practice some soothing techniques, i wish i knew why your medication wasn’t working, that must be scary to deal with, but your therapist will likely be able to better determine your next steps regarding medication. that might mean switching, or upping your dosage a safe amount.

@spongeslices I swear this space has been such a blessing. Thank you so much really, I know it’s old intrusive thoughts and images but they came back outta no where especially because I just started therapy. Does this mean that those images and thoughts wasn’t real?

@Anonymous i think practicing empathy and being realistic to/for yourself is the quickest solution i’m so glad you have the help you need

@Anonymous i believe so, yes!

@Anonymous i’m not sure how it’s tied to memory, but the fact they’ve returned for no reason doesn’t mean anything is wrong with you. maybe it’s all apart of the healing process

@spongeslices Wait so they were real?? I felt some type of Déjà vu earlier and I’m scared all this is just confirming everything

@spongeslices Okay I’m scared even more now

@Anonymous no, i’m not saying they’re real, i’m saying the fact that these thoughts are returning seemingly out out of nowhere could be your brain trying to come to an understanding with said thoughts. they aren’t real, and they never happened! it’s okay, you’re not a monster.

@spongeslices as for my comment on being realistic, i meant you should exercise being realistic because nothing tangible happened after you had those intrusive thoughts, right? i don’t know the situation, but if anything had actually happened, other people would share the same memory. there would be tangible, physical evidence.

@Anonymous i did not mean to scare you omg 😪

@spongeslices I’m sorry, thank you. I’m trying my hardest right now to believe what you are saying.

@spongeslices I’m being realistic right now, analyzing the intrusive image. I would remember that feeling and I know I have morals to not do that

@Anonymous don’t be sorry, i’m here to help you!! i’m glad you’re communicating so i can better explain myself, to help soothe you lol

@Anonymous i’m glad to hear this, knowing yourself and staying grounded is veeery important

@Anonymous you really don’t have to be sorry, especially when you’re going through something this serious

@spongeslices The image just keeps haunting me, it disgusts me that it haunted me before and still is now. I think it’s letting me know that anything is possible, what if I blacked out an committed such a horrible crime even though after the intrusive thought/image happened one time it scared me so much i avoided family but I’m scared that since I don’t remember what happened last year and the image is coming up again and what if I lost control and it’s really a memory???