Getting ready for the Easter Vigil

Just need to get out of my head for a minute… Today is the 1 year anniversary of my baptism and wow how different my life is today than it was a year ago. OCD has really taken over a lot of my life and it’s definitely affected my relationship with God. I have mixed emotions today as I’m getting ready to go to the Easter vigil. I’m so excited to participate in a new way this year and to welcome all the new converts who will be baptized and confirmed tonight. But I’m also battling scrupulosity right now and feel a deep sense of shame that I’m not living up to my calling as a Christian. And at the same time I ALSO feel like God is the one who led me to finally getting diagnosed and finding the right treatment and so he probably is willing to bear with me in patience as my world is being turned upside down. May God bless you all and have a very happy Easter. 🙏

Burnsey

Date posted: 15h

You are loved. Try loving yourself a little, too. Have a GREAT Easter! He did it for you and me. Let’s find joy in that!

AllisonRojas

Date posted: 14h

@Burnsey Amen! Thank you 🙏

Hopeful58

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 13h

God loves you. Because your faith is so important, that is what OCD picks on to get a reaction. OCD is not you and not God. Happy Easter✝️💝

AllisonRojas

Date posted: 13h

@Hopeful58 Amen! Well said 🙏🩷 Have a happy Easter!

dmdhello

Date posted: 14h

Wow thank you so much for sharing! I myself struggle with this as well and recently I’ve felt like I’ve deceived myself into thinking I believe in Him and that I’m an imposter or wolve in the church and a fake person that deceives herself 🥲

AllisonRojas

Date posted: 14h

@dmdhello It can be sooooo easy to spiral. I know exactly what you mean. I often worry that I don’t believe in my heart what I know in my head. But, I know that if I entrust what little I have to the Lord, he can use it all for my good. I often recall the story from Mark chapter 9 of the little boy with the unclean spirit and how the father cries out “I believe; help my unbelief!” That has become my anchor for entrusting myself to the Lord even when I feel like a total hypocrite or an unbeliever. It’s still a daily struggle. May we both find peace and healing in God’s merciful love 🙏🩷

Juliette26

Date posted: 13h

I am so happy for you! I was raised catholic, but my dad was not. He married my mum and took on the responsibility of the four kids, two with behavioral disorders, one with bipolar, and myself with OCD, she had from a previous abusive marriage. He broke a cycle of abuse in his own life and did his best to protect. He became catholic when he simply showed up for my mum. She needed help at church with the four of us so he went and found his way towards God. Loving is enough to fulfill what we should be as Christians. It is Loving enough to obey God and help others. It is simple thongs, not every one of us is called to be grand. Personally, this year I've struggled with my faith. Im 19 and trying to figure out where I belong in the world, but I never stop loving. You are doing amazing things, even on the hardest days! Im so happy for you!

AllisonRojas

Date posted: 13h

@Juliette26 God bless you, sister. Thank you for sharing your story and some words of encouragement 🙏 I wish you well on your faith journey and please reach out if I can be of any support to you. We’re all on this walk together 🩷

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