please help

mention of SA hey guys, I’m sorry but this isn’t a good post. this feels more like a crisis but not really. I don’t know. someone help me figure this out. I’m crying currently and have been for a couple minutes now. the scene keeps replaying in my head. context: I was chilling at home, cleaning & I could hear bells in the distance. I thought, “it can’t be, is it really?” because usually the ice cream man has bells and it’s known in the latino community that ice cream people have bells attached to their little carts. well, I looked at my wallet to see if there was cash in it & there was. I quickly ran outside and yelled at him so he could stop. I was happy to see him bc it’s been years since an ice cream man has stopped by the neighborhood. I chat with him a bit, ask him about his day & such. he seemed quite awkward at talking & I couldn’t find certain words in spanish so I talked awkwardly too. he eventually asked if I was married & I said no, I live with my dad & brother. he then proceeded to ask for my number & I asked why, and he said for anytime I wanted ice cream to text him. I thought it was a bit weird but I wrote down his number. I didn’t know how to say no. at least I didn’t give him my number. anyway, I tell him that I was gonna call my brother to see if he wanted something & then got him his stuff. I paid for my stuff & right when I’m about to leave, he asks if he could get a hug. I thought, “unexpected, but maybe this guy’s business is struggling & just needs a hug!” esp thinking abt the youtube video’s I’ve been watching lately abt these youtubers helping small businesses out & the owners are emotional & hug the youtuber. even tho I paid like idk $12, I just thought the man needed a hug. well, that’s when it happened. we hugged & I felt his hands go down to the back of my pants & he like patted like the side of my ass or pockets. I’m talking about back pockets. I was so confused. was he trying to pickpocket me???? was I just sexually assaulted??? I literally looked up if it was normal for a stranger to hug and feel your butt. now I’m replaying the scene and doubt is filling my mind. like maybe I’m just overthinking. I don’t know. after that, I felt uncomfortable and walked away to my house but went thru the back alley since I didn’t want this man to see which house I lived in. I called my brother to open the garage door bc I thought the guy was weird. I then told my brother why I thought the guy was weird and then before I could even get to the part that has me upset, my brother started talking about something else. after he was done talking, he didn’t ask what else happened. I’m still upset about that. my brother kept talking but that’s when I felt reserved. I didn’t want to talk in the moment. I went into my room and locked the door bc I felt like emotions were coming in, and they did. I was crying quietly while I tried to eat my off-brand totino rolls. I looked up stuff online and I just can’t tell if I’m making it up or it really happened. the crying felt uncontrollable at some point and for some reason drool was coming out of my mouth. it’s been like 25 minutes since that incident & I can still feel that man’s hands on me. the fact that I’m typing right now and it feels slow either because this fucking phone is fucking slow and lagging or my fingers aren’t moving fast enough that it’s making me more upset is annoying. I keep having to delete letters because of stupid ass fucking autocorrect or just my typing being ass. anyway, I cried. I feel upset at my brother bc he was just laughing about another topic while what I experienced felt something serious. I don’t know. I stopped crying already while typing this. I’m still in this chair and can still feel that man’s hands. the crying is gone and now I’m starting to feel something like anger. frustration. and somewhere in my mind I’m thinking maybe it’s my fault for being so fucking stupid and naive and letting myself be in that position. I don’t know what to think. I’m getting fucking angry thinking . I was going to do my english hw & I’m on the verge of failing if I don’t do these assignments but after what just happened, I feel like saying “fuck it” & withdrawing from the course because I’m just fucking irritated I’m irritated by either my fingers not typing fast enough or my phone messing up my shit with autocorrect or by the fact that I was maybe sexually assaulted and all I can do right now is just be angry. if that’s the case, sadly, it’s not the first time I had my ass touched without my consent. why can’t people keep their hands to themselves. why. why why why. I don’t understand it. I was going to do homework but now I feel like it’s fucking ruined. I’m fucking frustrated that I’m cursing and saying fuck in almost every fucking sentence. and my back is sore from the cleaning I did today. I don’t know what to think. someone please just tell me what it is.