I recently started developing a sexual harm theme of ocd, I’m constantly worried if I want to hurt someone sexually, or that I will but my anxieties are stopping me. I feel disgusted and it also feels like I AM going to do it too even though I have no desire to, it’s worrying. I’m just coming here to ask if anyone has a similar experience if you have a form of harm ocd? Thanks.
i used to struggle with that, i started being able to just ask myself if i have a desire to do such a thing, if i don't, then im not gonna do it. also sexual deviants don't worry about being sexual deviants
Even when you remind yourself does it still somewhat scare you !
@Anonymous It does sadly
@Anonymous yeah, but i just try to occupy myself with something else. I've dealt with so many fears from ocd for so long, and after i while it goes from rumination for 9 hours straight in my back yard (true story btw) to maybe 30 minutes. a rapist or sexual assaulted doesn't worry about doing it, they want to.
@U+2623 Thanks for this, really helpful. I sometimes wonder if I actually want it though and that’s really worrying for me sadly
@U+2623 assaulter* using logic against an illogical disorder doesn't work all the time but if gives you an extra couple centimeters to breathe
@sprite_sipply - Question have you ever lost sleep like it’s hard for you to fall asleep and the next day you feel drained and foggy?
@U+2623 - Has it ever made you irritable with the people around you or do they trigger it sometimes even though they don’t do anything ? So you kinda in a way isolate yourself or try to avoid the thought.
@sprite_sipply best advice i can give is just ask urself if you've ever gotten pleasure from thinking about doing those things. if you don't, then you aren't dangerous, you are suffering from ocd. recognize the ocd
@U+2623 - I haven’t felt peace in the last couple of months I’ve been crying and just overwhelmed I feel like everyone around me is able to move and function and work and do everything and I’m just stuck and on baby steps it low key makes my anxiety worse.
@Anonymous this isn't forever and it's heavily temporary, i was stuck for 6 months. throwing up, cutting and burning and sleeping all day, shaking and crying and staying inside, it just slowly gets better. it doesn't work for everyone but I just realized i ask myself the same question, and when you keep asking the same question you start to realize the answer. if i keep asking if im a rapist, and i panic and ruminate and find out i don't actually want to over and over it becomes easier to deal with
@Anonymous chronic stress and bad sleep are the main contributing factors to both of those
@U+2623 - I’ve never gotten pleasure definitely not. But when you obsess with it it makes it very uncomfortable like believable if you understand. But your definitely right sitting with the thought is pretty difficult cause it’s like your feeling the pain of it and your not relaxed. Thank you for your guidance. I just have to remind myself in the moment even if it means talking myself down.
@U+2623 - This definitely put it in a different perspective. When I have them I do cry and I have a panic attack and I try and fight it or sit with it. So that’s proving it’s my OCD talking. I just need to find it within myself to push through and somewhat change my train of thought it’s just hard to do so. I fear every single thing when my boyfriend walks to the door from work going to the gym or my cousins house and work I think is cause I’m scared I will start to panic and lose it. I am so sorry you have dealt with it an your helping me which does give me encouragement to help others and I’m happy your able to find coping skills to manage your symptoms
@Anonymous bad people don't panic about them being bad, you won't be bad against your will. that's textbook ocd
I deal with this exact same thing, but mine also turn into false memories based on times where I was so anxious with intrusive thoughts and the false urges. Can you relate to this? For example if I have a intrusive thought relating to my sexual ocd, my mind will convince me later in the day that because I thought it and “felt” like I could do it then it must’ve happened
Yes mine is just not in usually HOCD so if I hurt a person I care about I start freaking out and I can’t sleep I start to cry it just stays in my head and it feels real. It’s like it urges me to do it because I’m already tired of having the thought and there is a reason why it’s there. It’s a lot my mind is so wired and I feel like I’m just holding on and not giving up
@Anonymous I relate to this, especially when I’m alone with someone, like my siblings. If I’m alone with them I’m worried I will lhurt them in any way. It’s silly because I care for them so much but the fact as a human I can do anything, it’s debilitating ☹️
Oh man.. I have been dealing with sexual harm and pocd for months now. False memory and false guilt too. Genuinely living convinced that I did/will do bad things. You’re not alone 🤍
@Anonymous Same here, hang in there my friend! We get these thoughts because they are the opposite of who we are
The intrusive urges are part of OCD. Don't worry. You just need therapy. They are nothing to worry about
I have a form of harm OCD and you’re right it is debilitating. The constant worries of it all. ERP has really helped me find some relief from it all and it doesn’t solve it but helps ease the pain
I also have Harm OCD when you get the urges does it make you irritable and make you feel like you want to do those things?
@Anonymous Yup, exactly like that 😭
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