I find myself grieving a lot. Grieving the loss of what I could have had if I wasn’t trapped in my head. Grieving over my physical heath, my mental health, my life choices. There are many things I wish I could go back and change. I feel bad for the past me who struggled with no help, I wish I could have changed things for her before.
I could have wrote about that whole thing myself. I know exactly how you feel. I grieve over the same things. I don’t know if you have the intrusive thoughts as well, but I had them really really bad when my kids were little, especially my first born and that haunts me to this day. I was thinking about that last night and it upsets me because I know there’s things I should’ve done and I didn’t. And this was years ago. How do you let things like that go? I know we are suppose to. I’m even crying while I’m typing this out. I feel like an emotional mess. I’m a Christian and I know we live in a fallen world, but I struggle with understanding why that we have to deal with this mental stuff that takes away our joy. I look at other people and think I wish I was like them. I feel like in a way that the mental things are worse than the physical although the physical is bad as well. I have had breast cancer and came through that and had a grandson that died at 2 1/2 years old with a rare disease and I came through that but this is just different. This seems to never go away. I know I’m sounding very negative and I have been on here giving people positive advice. I’m just struggling right now and have been for a long time. Any positive advice for you and for me is welcome. ❤️
We have to learn to accept it, it’ll get easier over time
It’s so hard. Not sure what your background is but I am chronically ill and due to my physical health and some other factors I had to completely stop dance which is my passion. The grief I felt and honestly still feel is so intense. It’s very hard to go through no matter what it’s about. Time and a good mindset will help a lot. There’s nothing you’ll ever be able to do to go back and that becomes easier to accept if you’re willing to do that. Sometimes you can use that grief as a motivator to make positive change in your life too. Nothing will change overnight but one day you’ll notice how far you’ve come. Wishing you the best ❤️
@dannybananny I am so so sorry you are going through this. I think you were typing your message out when I was doing the same. You’re so right about the mindset. It’s all in the mind. It’s not easy when there has been trauma. I will pray for all of us on here as I have been doing. And I know God is our only hope and I need to get back to the Christian walk that I had before. And one thing that is not helping me right now is I am recovering from a very, very bad sprained ankle that they are treating like it is broke. So I am layed up here at home and can’t be on my feet but of course there’s times you have to like going to the bathroom and things. So I can’t go to the gym and get out which is not good for my mental state as well.
@Cher54 I read your other post as well and you’ve been through a lot it sounds like. You’re right, not being able to do anything physically is so bad for you mentally too, it’s a tough spot. When I had surgery on my knee I really struggled as well cause I could barely take care of myself let alone go out for anything. I am glad to hear you share some stories about what you’re going through and am sending good thoughts and prayers your way. ❤️
@dannybananny Thank you so much. Prayers for you as well. 🙏🏻❤️
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