Communion at church

Kinda similar to my last post, but i did my first communion recently, so i can take communion now, but i feel like i dont really want to! Its like ill miss having church mass be just sitting and listening without being expected to do anything, but like now i feel that now im just expected to just fast and take communion and then kneel and pray every week and i feel like i dont want to! Praying is hard for me because scrupulosity makes me do it a specific way but ive been really tired of religion lately its been too stressing and i dont really want to have to take communion each week now even tho ik i dont need to, but the thing is i know my mind will drive me insane and i keep thinking if i dont take communion even if i havent sinned then im just denying Jesus 😭 Plus i have hypoglycemia and fasting is hard for me but my teacher didn’t let me eat much on my first communion cause i was supposed to take communion soon (dw i was okay i had glocuse pills) but like i know that since i have a health condition its not necessary to fast but i still feel like i should be fasting atleast until my blood sugar goes down cause im going to take communion, but like i dont wanna be having low blood sugar in church plus i sometimes liked eating before church started! I know that its okay to not take communion each week but ill feel like my family will be expecting me to even tho they said its okay if i dont, and my mind will make me think im denying jesus too, i dont think i have sinned but im also tired of having to act so perfect just so i dont have to confess again which i really dont want to im socially anxious Any tips? Please dont try to convince me to pray more or be more religious or take communion, i really appreciate it but it honestly stresses me out more and i feel i may need a break from religion because its been making me lose my will to live… i just need to know if im okay lol

Tea and Honey

Date posted: 19h

It's perfectly understandable that taking communion and going to church causes anxiety. In fact, most Christians with OCD experience anxiety over these things. You don't need to take a break from your faith. In fact, I can tell you right now that it was God who took me out of OCD. However, you might need to take a break from doing things that are overstimulating your brain right now. I took a year where I didn't pray much at all, and I didn't do hardly any Bible studies. I just took about 10 Bible verses that comforted me, and I focused on them. Otherwise, I didn't do anything. I just let my brain rest. I think you might find this article really interesting. This shows that taking communion and going to church and reading the Bible causes stress for most Christians with OCD. In fact, this is a perfectly NORMAL reaction for Christians with OCD. https://scrupulosity.com/spiritual-anxiety/ Your brain is tired and overstimulated. It's okay to take a break from doing a lot of religious things like praying or reading the a Bible, because it causes so much stress. (But, like I said, you are not taking a break from God himself.) But the good news is that God it's not interested so much in so the things you can DO for him. Instead, he just wants you to have faith in him. He is a Good Father, and he is going to help you through this OCD. Over time, as your OCD gets better, you can add back the praying and reading the Bible into your life. (It may take a long time, though, before your brain is rested enough). God understands that doing those things are hard for you right now!! When it comes to communion, don't put pressure on yourself. And don't worry what other people think. You can decide how often you are going to take it, or maybe you take a break from taking it for a while. It's totally up to you. God understands that this is hard, and he has compassion on you! Please talk more if you want to!!! I know how hard this can be. I also understand that these struggles won't be solved by one conversation. It usually takes a lot of processing and taking and having conversations with people Most of the time we feel alone in our struggles. You are not alone. This it very common for OCD. And there is a way out. You don't have to be trapped by it.

jj5788

Date posted: Yesterday

Christianity is not just about doing a certain amount of communion, praying, fasting. Those are all important, but too many rules aren’t helpful. Even a short prayer can be good, even a small effort to fast can be meaningful. In the Bible Jesus tells us to lay our burdens on him, even if we do so in an imperfect or messy prayer. And when you get the OCD thoughts (that tell you you’re doing something wrong or bad) just name them and bring it to God. Do not try to solve or reassure yourself, just state it clearly out loud that the thought is just OCD noise. And then sit with the thought and resist finding answers

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